Hey.. hey, hey. Reflect
Can I? Can I.. reflect?
[Verse 1]
Sometimes I ponder with myself what the meaning of life is
Is it demons and fighting or is it leading it righteous.?
I find myself among the heathens and peep I'm just like them
Except I'm believing in Christ and wanna be in his likeness
Nah I ain't come here to preach, just wanna start a discussion
My life's melodic, it makes sense that my heart is percussion
Now don't that sound beat?
Got monologues around me in abundance
So I'm hoping that my actions speaking loudly
And my pride is silenced, and my ego's quiet
And my mind is hungry, libido on a diet
My Lord is able, heck of a God he is
Ironic how these crowded thoughts can earn the boy an audience
Look at my past, you'll see this state of mind that I be in is golden like Curry
But even 30 gotta ride the bench
And I ain't being pretentious, that's just my confidence
But I won't allow it to make the blemish anonymous
I fight with demons, this anxiety is obvious
So if it feel like I'm being distant, I probably is
My past is tainted by broken condoms and promises
The kamikaze, compiling comments that got some common sense
Back when commissary was common as Pop's consequence
I emerged a visionary and planned out all my accomplishments
So now I'm on a roll, making moves for n***as to document
And all of y'all behind, better put some crimson in your condiments.... catch up..
[Bridge]
A wise man told me everybody's something..
I give you my all, don't you make it all for nothing
[Verse 2]
How can you blame me when everything you gave me made me?
I ain't heard from my Pops since he said that he hate me
My flesh and blood, no father, he foul
Searching for words but the only thing to conjure is "wow"
Bottle of vodka to drown
Chase it with some pride and swallow it down
To fight the demons til tomorrow is found
But by the look of it, it's lost in the whirlwind
And bump it if the world end tonight
I can say I did right by my girlfriend.. sike!
False statement, tried to run but I can't escape it
Tears fall, hoping a flower grow up from the pavement
Empty wishes man, how can I recover?
I got this n***a on the texts sending threats to mother
I used to believed him when he said that he love us
And now i think nothing of him
5 deep, word to my sister and brothers
So rest in peace
He ain't dead yet but to me dog, he ain't alive
Had two of my aunties die
Trying to keep the pain inside..
Can I? Can I..... reflect?