YSMBeats - Realize lyrics

Hey.. hey, hey. Reflect Can I? Can I.. reflect? [Verse 1] Sometimes I ponder with myself what the meaning of life is Is it demons and fighting or is it leading it righteous.? I find myself among the heathens and peep I'm just like them Except I'm believing in Christ and wanna be in his likeness Nah I ain't come here to preach, just wanna start a discussion My life's melodic, it makes sense that my heart is percussion Now don't that sound beat? Got monologues around me in abundance So I'm hoping that my actions speaking loudly And my pride is silenced, and my ego's quiet And my mind is hungry, libido on a diet My Lord is able, heck of a God he is Ironic how these crowded thoughts can earn the boy an audience Look at my past, you'll see this state of mind that I be in is golden like Curry But even 30 gotta ride the bench And I ain't being pretentious, that's just my confidence But I won't allow it to make the blemish anonymous I fight with demons, this anxiety is obvious So if it feel like I'm being distant, I probably is My past is tainted by broken condoms and promises The kamikaze, compiling comments that got some common sense Back when commissary was common as Pop's consequence I emerged a visionary and planned out all my accomplishments So now I'm on a roll, making moves for n***as to document And all of y'all behind, better put some crimson in your condiments.... catch up.. [Bridge] A wise man told me everybody's something.. I give you my all, don't you make it all for nothing [Verse 2] How can you blame me when everything you gave me made me? I ain't heard from my Pops since he said that he hate me My flesh and blood, no father, he foul Searching for words but the only thing to conjure is "wow" Bottle of vodka to drown Chase it with some pride and swallow it down To fight the demons til tomorrow is found But by the look of it, it's lost in the whirlwind And bump it if the world end tonight I can say I did right by my girlfriend.. sike! False statement, tried to run but I can't escape it Tears fall, hoping a flower grow up from the pavement Empty wishes man, how can I recover? I got this n***a on the texts sending threats to mother I used to believed him when he said that he love us And now i think nothing of him 5 deep, word to my sister and brothers So rest in peace He ain't dead yet but to me dog, he ain't alive Had two of my aunties die Trying to keep the pain inside.. Can I? Can I..... reflect?