This is just the way the mind works
Always seem to make the bad worse
Memories all stuck in reverse
Nothing's good enough for the curse
And you might think that I would learn
from my mistakes
And you might think that I won't hurt
myself again
She's a drug - A habit I can't kick
A gift she was born with
The first and last thing on my mind
And there's no way I can afford her
I simply adore her
The first and last thing on my mind
This is just the way it will be
To make a change is not up to me
Instead of us - you chose to be free
And still you don't seem all that happy
But it's not easy just to start over again
And it's not easy just to put a lid on pain
She's a drug - A habit I can't kick
A gift she was born with
The first and last thing on my mind
And there's no way I can afford her
I simply adore her
The first and last thing on my mind
(But it's time) To put my hands across my face
To close my eyes and walk this maze
To fall into this f**ing haze - forever
So let me go I'm not afraid
I'll face this one all by myself
It's nog as bad as if we'd stay - together