I got the city lights
I got another pint
Dulling the depression
That I feel inside
I am the blackest curse on this green earth
The blackest curse on this green earth
A part of me
I used to be
Hurting over what I let the mirror see
I am the blackest curse on this green earth
The blackest curse on this green earth
Laughing out loud
In the place where he died
Dancing with a stranger
Like it never even happened
I mean I'm already not getting any sleep these days
So I party with the memories
Invite out all my best defenses
I am the blackest curse on this green earth
But I'm not hopeless, I'm not hopeless
I'm not hopeless, I'm not hopeless
I'm not who I thought I'd be
But I'm not hopeless
Depression has never been easier
Now that we're forced to navigate a sea of untrained experts and their inane opinions on every thing
I must be out of my mind right
I must be god damn deaf right
I must be misguided right
And no one finds you narcissistic right
There is a special place in hell for me
There is a
There is a special place in hell for me
I'm sick of losing every argument that I have with myself
Just once let me be the other guy who's been winning
I understand if I wanted to remain trusted
I had to learn to believe my own lies
So don't remind me
Come on!
That's not how you shake with anger
You lose your mind
That's not how you shake with anger
You've been faking this whole time
And good for you,
You probably get good sleep at night
But pointed questions belong in dull minds
So learn to shut up sometimes
But I'm not hopeless, I'm not hopeless
I'm not hopeless, I'm not hopeless
I'm not who I thought I'd be
But I'm not hopeless
No, I won't always stay down
And I can live with the fact that I'm not who I thought I'd be
But I'm not hopeless
The joke that I told to my friends at the wake
About the name that I gave him at the bar while we were drinking
I mean I'm having trouble feeling anything these days
I drink a lot more now in case you're wondering
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There is a special place in hell for me
There is a
There is a special place in hell for me