This or the Apocalypse - Damaged Good lyrics

I got the city lights I got another pint Dulling the depression That I feel inside I am the blackest curse on this green earth The blackest curse on this green earth A part of me I used to be Hurting over what I let the mirror see I am the blackest curse on this green earth The blackest curse on this green earth Laughing out loud In the place where he died Dancing with a stranger Like it never even happened I mean I'm already not getting any sleep these days So I party with the memories Invite out all my best defenses I am the blackest curse on this green earth But I'm not hopeless, I'm not hopeless I'm not hopeless, I'm not hopeless I'm not who I thought I'd be But I'm not hopeless Depression has never been easier Now that we're forced to navigate a sea of untrained experts and their inane opinions on every thing I must be out of my mind right I must be god damn deaf right I must be misguided right And no one finds you narcissistic right There is a special place in hell for me There is a There is a special place in hell for me I'm sick of losing every argument that I have with myself Just once let me be the other guy who's been winning I understand if I wanted to remain trusted I had to learn to believe my own lies So don't remind me Come on! That's not how you shake with anger You lose your mind That's not how you shake with anger You've been faking this whole time And good for you, You probably get good sleep at night But pointed questions belong in dull minds So learn to shut up sometimes But I'm not hopeless, I'm not hopeless I'm not hopeless, I'm not hopeless I'm not who I thought I'd be But I'm not hopeless No, I won't always stay down And I can live with the fact that I'm not who I thought I'd be But I'm not hopeless The joke that I told to my friends at the wake About the name that I gave him at the bar while we were drinking I mean I'm having trouble feeling anything these days I drink a lot more now in case you're wondering [2x] There is a special place in hell for me There is a There is a special place in hell for me