Now I'm standing straight up
Next to God's sandal
Asking him for the mantle
Still addicted to getting into
Positions I can't handle
Looking back on wrong decisions
Realizing I had the answers
Odds stacked against my favor
Decided to take the chances
Still walking off of balance
Cause I couldn't balance
The challenges
Realizing that dreams of
Owning them Challengers
Hella challenging
Been gifted my whole life
But the receipt
Doesn't resemble the price
On the tag
Thought I had it in the bag
But the baggage that I carry
Weighs down on me
So that even I start to sag
Every particle of my being
Has been
Beaten and battered
Call batters up
To dismantle
My target audience
To tatters
Leave tatted tears
On the tenants of the
Apartment that I'm rented
Resented myself because of the
Way that I handle business
This busy body's
Grown lazier
Deeper into his sentence
I'm trying to find repentance
I hope the lord shows remorse
But of course
The way I reconcile with pain
Has been recorded
By memory
I should report it
To friends of me
It's important
To set me free
My inhibitions must be known
To the people I hold closest
But maybe I hold posers
Cause all of them hold poses
We all got something
To hide
But some of us hide roses
Some of us hide crutches
And some of us hide stars
Some of us hide fires
And some of us hide scars
Some of us deny that the
Skin can even be scathed
While getting
Paper cuts
In the manga
At the flip of a page
In the day of the life
Of the life in the age
It's impossible to be a Sage
With this scattering rage
Frustration twists
Into sorrow
And sorrow turns into anger
Bottom line is
There's pain
That's been hanging
Inside this chamber
I takes the form of a bullet
The safety's off
And it's loaded
Aimed at my head
But I'm rooted
So God I need you to pull it
I'm fearful
Don't want to do it
Feeling lesser or congruent
So I make myself
Truant
Another student
Residing
In hell because of
His failures
I failed to
Finalize one thought
Before I spoke it
And now I just lay
Tumultuous
Tainted by
Tinted
Torturers
Tinted windows
Couldn't withstand the
Glare from the
Gorgeous
Begged to be imported
Now I'm on the
Lords shoulder
Praying that he exports me
Hallelujah
I just want to say hallelujah
I just want to say hallelujah
I just want to say hallelujah
I just want to say hallelujah