Now I'm standing straight up Next to God's sandal Asking him for the mantle Still addicted to getting into Positions I can't handle Looking back on wrong decisions Realizing I had the answers Odds stacked against my favor Decided to take the chances Still walking off of balance Cause I couldn't balance The challenges Realizing that dreams of Owning them Challengers Hella challenging Been gifted my whole life But the receipt Doesn't resemble the price On the tag Thought I had it in the bag But the baggage that I carry Weighs down on me So that even I start to sag Every particle of my being Has been Beaten and battered Call batters up To dismantle My target audience To tatters Leave tatted tears On the tenants of the Apartment that I'm rented Resented myself because of the Way that I handle business This busy body's Grown lazier Deeper into his sentence I'm trying to find repentance I hope the lord shows remorse But of course The way I reconcile with pain Has been recorded By memory I should report it To friends of me It's important To set me free My inhibitions must be known To the people I hold closest But maybe I hold posers Cause all of them hold poses We all got something To hide But some of us hide roses Some of us hide crutches And some of us hide stars Some of us hide fires And some of us hide scars Some of us deny that the Skin can even be scathed While getting Paper cuts In the manga At the flip of a page In the day of the life Of the life in the age It's impossible to be a Sage With this scattering rage Frustration twists Into sorrow And sorrow turns into anger Bottom line is There's pain That's been hanging Inside this chamber I takes the form of a bullet The safety's off And it's loaded Aimed at my head But I'm rooted So God I need you to pull it I'm fearful Don't want to do it Feeling lesser or congruent So I make myself Truant Another student Residing In hell because of His failures I failed to Finalize one thought Before I spoke it And now I just lay Tumultuous Tainted by Tinted Torturers Tinted windows Couldn't withstand the Glare from the Gorgeous Begged to be imported Now I'm on the Lords shoulder Praying that he exports me Hallelujah I just want to say hallelujah I just want to say hallelujah I just want to say hallelujah I just want to say hallelujah