There was no reason left to find
No explanation more than mine
I had to tell you
How much I wanted you to try and get me right
My k**er ego got me high
And I got down and left my shrine
I had to find you
Say that I'm sorry for every time I let you down
There will be nights to call for d**h with soft names
Nights to let our youth grow pale
I had a train to take me home
Through station lights and falling snow I had to focus
Assemble armies of guilt with which to pay my loans, self reliant
Like a cat you took the blame and gave it back
You were so full of joyless daylight
You need darkness first and last