There was no reason left to find No explanation more than mine I had to tell you How much I wanted you to try and get me right My k**er ego got me high And I got down and left my shrine I had to find you Say that I'm sorry for every time I let you down There will be nights to call for d**h with soft names Nights to let our youth grow pale I had a train to take me home Through station lights and falling snow I had to focus Assemble armies of guilt with which to pay my loans, self reliant Like a cat you took the blame and gave it back You were so full of joyless daylight You need darkness first and last