[Hook: Singer]
Heaven never caught you
No one ever stalled you
You be tethered to your own fights
So don't cry
Heaven never caught you
No one ever stopped you
You be tethered to your own lies
So don't fight
[Verse 1: Rufescent]
Take me to the dark place
The place buried so far down you never see its face
Like the come off, off the blaze that was
Terribly prefaced by the weed that was laced
(This rap's different, I'm not writing in rhymes)
I'm writing in times of evil scorned by the pine
Trees in the back of my yard when I was growing up
My mother kicked me out of the house at 16 years old
'K that's a lie one I told many times
Cause the truth hurts (the truth hurts)
The booth irks me to write some sh** bashing her
But I'm not gonna, OK yes I am
She kicked me out when I was ten
Me and my sisters, and them
Them being the kids she baby-sat, she'd pretend
Then take the money from her clients
The parents of the vibrant young defiant strong
Children begat from hard lives torn wives and
Fathers with no might
But she's the only reason Rufescent rhymes tight
TJ's words are like curves they're cursed
By the woman who cared more for her purse
In his face she kicked dirt
She bought him a Nerf gun and told him
"Go out in the woods and never defy good"
So he never defied good
[Hook: Singer]
Heaven never caught you
No one ever stalled you
You be tethered to your own fights
So don't cry
Heaven never caught you
No one ever stopped you
You be tethered to your own lies
So don't fight
[Verse 2: Rufescent]
While he watched her defy what would
Be the only reason he would
Care for a girl like he should
Maybe he'll treat them nice, and if they have
Gripes or keep him up late nights or throw
Grains of rice at his face splicing his heart
Tearing his veins, being his pain
Being the very headache
He'd be addicted to them like crack
Like he was his mama, her smack
The verbal blow she would pack
(TJ died of heart attack, body burned to ash)
Now he roams the earth as Rufescent
Sniffing out rapists, drug dealers, and donating
Their skin to peasants
He's out there trying to save one girl at a time
Cause the one he couldn't save was his f**ing mom
This is the realist sh** I ever wrote
Mostly because God says to honor your parents
But what honor is there trapped in a moat
My mother had my neck guarded like a choke
Turned me into smoke, shots rusted
Now I must get it off my chest and f**ing cuss
(Lord forgive me in you I should have trust)
Lord forgive me in you I should have trust
[Bridge: Singer]
I'm so lonely
Control me
So lonely
No controlling
So lonely...
[Verse 3: Rufescent]
Funny how her and I worship the same God
And that's probably the reason why I've always fallen
It's like your enemy leading you to the pot of gold
And then your success is measured by that pot until your days grow old
I'm sorry mom for attacking ya
Only reason why I do it is not because of us
It's because of the girls I watched you torment
Three beautiful faces you made your doormat
You think I'd adore that (nah)
Funny, I forgive you a bit
Not because of you, and God helps, but listen to this twist
It's because of one small girl of whom you laid your fist
A girl who lives her life in pain because her mom exists
She said, big brother
Just forgive