[Intro]
This ugly motherf**er in the mirror (this f**ing mirror)
Punch a hole through this mirror (what am I supposed to do?)
This f*ggot in the mirror (can't deal with this breathing sh**)
I hate this breathing sh** (life is f**ed up)
[Verse 1]
Yo yo yo
I can't believe the way I'm feeling
I wake up still poor plus the pain that exists ain't never healing
(Day by day) day by day goes by time is wasted
My situation make me want to take a permanent vacation
I'd die for my pride plus I'm tired
I got no more respect left for the people in the past that I admired
(I'm not sh**) I'm not sh** (I'm not sh**)
I won't be sh** (I won't be sh**)
I eat sh**, I cut my veins and then I bleed sh**
Plus kid, no man can be trusted
I lusted for the spare custard
I see the mirror close, fist got busted
I get no b**hes cause I'm broke
The last b**h I had f**ed my crew and tried to play me like a joke
It's getting closer to my big hour
I bought my first gun at SIG Sauer
Y'all know it's the only way to get power
But I ain't sh**
Even with this gat, I ain't sh** (I ain't sh**)
Ten years down the line the same sh** (I ain't sh**)
I blame myself but at the same time blame society
If yo a** don't know me then yo a** shouldn't be trying me
Put the stick in my pants and grabbed the switchblade
That I got from my man the Harley Davidson rider
Better known as One-Eyed-Jake the Suffolk County biker
(I can't deal with this sh** no more yo, oh man)
I start to feel the sh**
I see this clique, they think they ill as sh**
But they won't think they ill when I start k**ing sh**
[Hook x2]
Hey na na na now
(Why did my life have to be this way?)
Hey na na na now
[Verse 2]
Now let's get back to business
Witness the finish, sh** is menace
Being broke make motherf**ers turn to sinners
I go to Smithaven Mall to see if anybody wants some
Anybody want some? But this is gonna cost 'em
I walk in the sneaker store
My a** is about to get raw
Look at my watch it's a quarter past four
My mind's blank, flipping, sh**ting
This the dead zone
I see this Spanish kid listening to reggae on his headphones
I grabbed him, snatched him backwards
Smacked him, he tried to react, it's when I was tempted to put a cap in him
But I didn't, I figured it was best if he was living
Pulled the SIG out everyone inside the store started sh**ting
I made everybody in the spot get down on they fours
I made a 300 pound woman strip down to her drawers
It was sickening, I couldn't believe what I was doing
My life is ruined at the age of 22
And it's for real, trying to find the spot the safe is
Cannot escape this, I'm scared to be in jail with all the rapists
I tried to rule the world but I blew it
I gave the fat naked b**h the gun to k** me, she wouldn't do it
So I took the gun back and beat her down
I gotta find a place to creep now (I gotta be out)
Yo, yo
This where my sh** stops
I turned around, surrounded by six cops
Put the clip in my SIG, got six shots
They made my skull almost cave in for misbehaving
It's cause I chickened out and threw the gun down and gave in
I had no respect on the outside
But now I got less respect on the inside (inside)
I tried to rule the world but I blew it
Wishing I was dead but I still don't got the guts to do it
[Hook x6]