R.A. The Rugged Man - Smithhaven Mall lyrics

[Intro] This ugly motherf**er in the mirror (this f**ing mirror) Punch a hole through this mirror (what am I supposed to do?) This f*ggot in the mirror (can't deal with this breathing sh**) I hate this breathing sh** (life is f**ed up) [Verse 1] Yo yo yo I can't believe the way I'm feeling I wake up still poor plus the pain that exists ain't never healing (Day by day) day by day goes by time is wasted My situation make me want to take a permanent vacation I'd die for my pride plus I'm tired I got no more respect left for the people in the past that I admired (I'm not sh**) I'm not sh** (I'm not sh**) I won't be sh** (I won't be sh**) I eat sh**, I cut my veins and then I bleed sh** Plus kid, no man can be trusted I lusted for the spare custard I see the mirror close, fist got busted I get no b**hes cause I'm broke The last b**h I had f**ed my crew and tried to play me like a joke It's getting closer to my big hour I bought my first gun at SIG Sauer Y'all know it's the only way to get power But I ain't sh** Even with this gat, I ain't sh** (I ain't sh**) Ten years down the line the same sh** (I ain't sh**) I blame myself but at the same time blame society If yo a** don't know me then yo a** shouldn't be trying me Put the stick in my pants and grabbed the switchblade That I got from my man the Harley Davidson rider Better known as One-Eyed-Jake the Suffolk County biker (I can't deal with this sh** no more yo, oh man) I start to feel the sh** I see this clique, they think they ill as sh** But they won't think they ill when I start k**ing sh** [Hook x2] Hey na na na now (Why did my life have to be this way?) Hey na na na now [Verse 2] Now let's get back to business Witness the finish, sh** is menace Being broke make motherf**ers turn to sinners I go to Smithaven Mall to see if anybody wants some Anybody want some? But this is gonna cost 'em I walk in the sneaker store My a** is about to get raw Look at my watch it's a quarter past four My mind's blank, flipping, sh**ting This the dead zone I see this Spanish kid listening to reggae on his headphones I grabbed him, snatched him backwards Smacked him, he tried to react, it's when I was tempted to put a cap in him But I didn't, I figured it was best if he was living Pulled the SIG out everyone inside the store started sh**ting I made everybody in the spot get down on they fours I made a 300 pound woman strip down to her drawers It was sickening, I couldn't believe what I was doing My life is ruined at the age of 22 And it's for real, trying to find the spot the safe is Cannot escape this, I'm scared to be in jail with all the rapists I tried to rule the world but I blew it I gave the fat naked b**h the gun to k** me, she wouldn't do it So I took the gun back and beat her down I gotta find a place to creep now (I gotta be out) Yo, yo This where my sh** stops I turned around, surrounded by six cops Put the clip in my SIG, got six shots They made my skull almost cave in for misbehaving It's cause I chickened out and threw the gun down and gave in I had no respect on the outside But now I got less respect on the inside (inside) I tried to rule the world but I blew it Wishing I was dead but I still don't got the guts to do it [Hook x6]