[Verse 1: Propain]
Bougie folks I'm feeling out of place
But I heard they got Italian foods you gotta taste
Chandeliers in every table got a pasta dish
Dressed in suits, I swear this sh** look like a mobster flick
(I'm Rick & I'll be here to serve & take your order
Would you like Red Wine? some liquor? maybe water?
The artichoke's delicious sir' & it's great for starters!)
I'm actually meeting someone here, I'll just wait to order
Matter fact I'll take some vodka when you bring that toast & --
(Sir'? Sir'?!)
Staring at the man, I just seen walk between them doors
The way my body froze out, you swear you think I seen a ghost!
So familiar, looking like someone I seen before
Same eyes, even nose, same size ring & clothes
Mama always told me that the first impressions mean the most
But I been waiting my whole f**ing life to let these demons go!
My body numb as he approaches
I grew up in the slums with the roaches cause this bum left me hopeless!
No, santa at my door, just a f**ing eviction notice!
God damn mayne, let me gain my focus, f**!
He walk up extend his hand, and look me in the eye
I accept, while tryna hide the evil in disguise!
Cause truth be told I wanna tell him come meet me outside!
Put a cannon to his temple, co*ked, squeeze & watch you die!
(Hey, how've you been son?)
How I been?!
Man what the hell you mean?!
You don't know me!
How you act concerned for one you've never seen?!
Where the f** was you when I was young & had to grow with fiends?!
House full of junkies mayne, I swear my crib was Medellín
It's all nightmares in the gutta, we don't ever dream, never smile!
(Shh, Shh, Shh, son, son)
b**h you could get it too, & that's on everything!
I hate you n***a, I can't say it no other way!
(Whoah hey, calm down)
I hope you never live to see another day!
(Calm down)
Nice to meet you ho!
[Verse 2: Propain]
I feel the pain as I enter the room
The sudden change of scene, got my mental confused
Looking hopeless & stiff in a tube
It seem like yesterday we met, today you gotta live through a tube
Looking up to God, am I missing the clues?
I hoped he die, but I didn't know that my wish would come true!
But then again as I'm looking at him full of d**
That resent me, built up in me, whispered "pull the plug"
I grew up lost & out of tone, tryna move with thugs
Anyone who took me in, funny what we do for love
Poor as sh**, shoes looking like them hoes been through the mud!
Mama can't afford herself, f** she suppose to do with us?!
No gifts for christmas, birthdays, no calls from you!
No pitch & catch, all that bullsh** that a father do!
Word out, you got another son & a daughter too
But left me out to dry, b**h you wonder why my heart removed?!
But what if that's false?
What if that part confused?
What if mama lying, & just wanted me far apart from you?!
What if you was locked up, wrote me, but I ain't read the kite?
(groans)
Wake yo' a** up dawg, don't leave me twice!
Knees starting to buckle
A face full of sickness
I'm acting like I'm perfect, all this fake sh** I committed
All the lies that I done told, all these games I played with b**hes
Who the f** was I to judge?! I should be getting a sentence
So that's the past now, [?]
Honor thy father, it's in the bible, even if they ain't did sh**
Could a been avoided for a few of them dollas
Never made it out that clinic
Now I stay with so much to say, but not too much time
& now it's too late
Happy Fathers Day!