Propain - Fathers Day lyrics

[Verse 1: Propain] Bougie folks I'm feeling out of place But I heard they got Italian foods you gotta taste Chandeliers in every table got a pasta dish Dressed in suits, I swear this sh** look like a mobster flick (I'm Rick & I'll be here to serve & take your order Would you like Red Wine? some liquor? maybe water? The artichoke's delicious sir' & it's great for starters!) I'm actually meeting someone here, I'll just wait to order Matter fact I'll take some vodka when you bring that toast & -- (Sir'? Sir'?!) Staring at the man, I just seen walk between them doors The way my body froze out, you swear you think I seen a ghost! So familiar, looking like someone I seen before Same eyes, even nose, same size ring & clothes Mama always told me that the first impressions mean the most But I been waiting my whole f**ing life to let these demons go! My body numb as he approaches I grew up in the slums with the roaches cause this bum left me hopeless! No, santa at my door, just a f**ing eviction notice! God damn mayne, let me gain my focus, f**! He walk up extend his hand, and look me in the eye I accept, while tryna hide the evil in disguise! Cause truth be told I wanna tell him come meet me outside! Put a cannon to his temple, co*ked, squeeze & watch you die! (Hey, how've you been son?) How I been?! Man what the hell you mean?! You don't know me! How you act concerned for one you've never seen?! Where the f** was you when I was young & had to grow with fiends?! House full of junkies mayne, I swear my crib was Medellín It's all nightmares in the gutta, we don't ever dream, never smile! (Shh, Shh, Shh, son, son) b**h you could get it too, & that's on everything! I hate you n***a, I can't say it no other way! (Whoah hey, calm down) I hope you never live to see another day! (Calm down) Nice to meet you ho! [Verse 2: Propain] I feel the pain as I enter the room The sudden change of scene, got my mental confused Looking hopeless & stiff in a tube It seem like yesterday we met, today you gotta live through a tube Looking up to God, am I missing the clues? I hoped he die, but I didn't know that my wish would come true! But then again as I'm looking at him full of d** That resent me, built up in me, whispered "pull the plug" I grew up lost & out of tone, tryna move with thugs Anyone who took me in, funny what we do for love Poor as sh**, shoes looking like them hoes been through the mud! Mama can't afford herself, f** she suppose to do with us?! No gifts for christmas, birthdays, no calls from you! No pitch & catch, all that bullsh** that a father do! Word out, you got another son & a daughter too But left me out to dry, b**h you wonder why my heart removed?! But what if that's false? What if that part confused? What if mama lying, & just wanted me far apart from you?! What if you was locked up, wrote me, but I ain't read the kite? (groans) Wake yo' a** up dawg, don't leave me twice! Knees starting to buckle A face full of sickness I'm acting like I'm perfect, all this fake sh** I committed All the lies that I done told, all these games I played with b**hes Who the f** was I to judge?! I should be getting a sentence So that's the past now, [?] Honor thy father, it's in the bible, even if they ain't did sh** Could a been avoided for a few of them dollas Never made it out that clinic Now I stay with so much to say, but not too much time & now it's too late Happy Fathers Day!