It was a secret to be hidden from my mother
And my father told me not close any doors
So I didn't say a word and I left the doors wide open
Well, your baby has been torn
I kissed her in secret by my house
Scared someone might see
But I realized that moment she was better than a secret
And she was better than I could ever be
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Coming out was never coming home
Running away from the things I had known
We didn't know that our backpacks were filled with the bullsh**
Until we tried to fix it
We broke up in February, the boy in college
He touched me, but I never touched him
I wondered if that's how it'd be
Saying I love you when I still couldn't f**ing breath
I called you many years later, saying her name
And you told me you didn't understand, it was a phase
Oh, I wish I had been braver when she held my hand
If love is a phase, then a phase is what I am
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Coming out was never coming home
Running away from the things I had known
They say it gets better it gets better it gets better
But rain always keeps getting wetter
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