It was a secret to be hidden from my mother And my father told me not close any doors So I didn't say a word and I left the doors wide open Well, your baby has been torn I kissed her in secret by my house Scared someone might see But I realized that moment she was better than a secret And she was better than I could ever be [Chorus] Coming out was never coming home Running away from the things I had known We didn't know that our backpacks were filled with the bullsh** Until we tried to fix it We broke up in February, the boy in college He touched me, but I never touched him I wondered if that's how it'd be Saying I love you when I still couldn't f**ing breath I called you many years later, saying her name And you told me you didn't understand, it was a phase Oh, I wish I had been braver when she held my hand If love is a phase, then a phase is what I am [Chorus] Coming out was never coming home Running away from the things I had known They say it gets better it gets better it gets better But rain always keeps getting wetter [Chorus]