Verse 1 : [ jetlagg ]
Abandoned Philippine Warehouse
6 chairs, round table, and whiskey for the big shots
Menthol cigarettes with some 90's Eminem
As the gla** pa**, I scratch my fingers with embarra**ment
Surprised as the people I once knew, drank & smoke with no hesitation
Asthmatic, doctorate goals, with no reason I thought it was hallucination
Have two years gone by? Or was I in a coma?
Persuaded with the words "just a little drink" "just a little bit"
I replied again and again give me some time to think
Tellin' the kid he left out, but honestly he just stressed out
Pressured to drink 6%, sh** it still counts
Introduced to the night life, but I might never see the white light
When I tilt my head my system may fright
Now my vision may cry
sh**, I just finished the booze
Now I'm part of the zoo, eyes more red than the nose of a bamboo
I could smell fear and regret, as I see my friends conflicted
Homie waited two years for her to say yes, but she declined so he fled while his momma's worried sick
I'm trynna help, and he explained I was never there
And money could never exchange the lost friend, he thinkin' I didn't care
The best thing I can do is share this pen
Just a vivid memory
The road to stardom, is full of friends & fiends
Ain't no pressure, I'm just showin' truth
(If you only knew)
Chorus : [ jetlagg ]
If you only knew, suicidal thoughts
Comin through
Let the bullets fly, hand me booze
Cause the word no, equals rude (yeah)
If you knew, If you knew, suicidal thoughts
Comin through
Let the bullets fly, hand me booze
Cause the word no, equals rude. (yeah)
Verse 2 : [ jetlagg ]
Tippy toin, give me more sh**!
What the f** is pain?
Booze givin me immortal strength
Are we on the right lane?
Punch me more vincent
You have my consent!
Ex walkin' by, probably s** is on her mind (giggle)
b**h don't even try, not even if my poor vision seein' you multiplied
You never replied, you never explained
You were too busy (cheatin with)
Wait I forgot his name
What a shame, you got this forever L cause that's how your name is spelled (sh** i'm clever)
Just kiddin, I'll say hello like Adele
Cause you got her, Marvin Gaye, and Lionel on repeat
But sh** I ain't grievin' I'm relieved im free!
No homies by my side when I'm throwin' up don't let it
Spill
Don't worry I'm chill, please more shots on the bill
I'll let Beatrix pay for it
Nothin on the floor but I tripped
Now my Bape got a stain is it sh**?
Slurry wording blurry walkin'
Where are we goin?
Don't touch me I'm golden with these Air Jordans
With the red on them they prolly cost a fortune
Why that stray dog talkin? now I'm hearin voices
Young kids got no problems but we ran out of choices
Now we on the roof, grievin for exes cause we f**ed up back then
Homie askin for a spliff, he said no and kept inhalin all of it
Cough cough, exhale
"Dumb dumb your lungs lungs about to fail"
"don't worry this is the last one
I promise cross my heart now I'm out son"
Next thing you know we back, damn we f**ed up