Yeah you know sometimes I feel so out of touch with life,
it just seems like I'm lost and directionless,
[simply] in the middle of nowhere with no clue how to get back home.
It's in these times of loneliness though, I realize the value of my loved ones and inversely how much I take them for granted.
It's funny how it's easier to appreciate the warmth of your relationships between family and friends while you're suffering in the cold.
I just hope I get my message across to them.
Yeah.
Before it's too late.
[All in part]
With the knowledge,
A spark
In the darkness.
An artist,
[The part]
With a heart
For catharsis.
Hard fists,
Frostbitten scarred lips,
Resonate the gift,
Reminiscent of guitar picks.
So while I go on to the farthest,
The waters uncharted,
The sun doesn't rise,
Like a shark in a tar pit.
Let's follow the stars
Right back where we started.
That's ironic.
I've been lost since I departed.
The thrill is long gone,
My soul is so cold.
The quest now unfolds,
Composure won't hold.
I'm alone as I lust
For the trust that I know,
On a dark road
[Covered in a gust of a snow].
One touch from the wind's
Like a knife to the skin.
[] take the burden
Of my sin from within.
And behold my stone
Heart's froze to the bone,
Up above the dome
Is a full moon, no glow.
A syndicate of snowflakes
Quick to be hitting me,
A white blizzard
Eliminate the visibility.
Critically conditioned,
I'm lingering with infirmities.
Frozen land,
Each step feels like eternity.
And Mother Nature
Ain't showing me any courtesy.
Below freezing,
s** the life outta mercury.
I [wake up, a nap],
Take a drink from the flask,
And walk the black path,
On the brink I collapse.
All eyes glued to the moon,
With the pursuit for the truth.
As I move to the tune,
There ain't much I can do.
Trapped in a frozen tomb,
In the sadness of night.
Navigate through the woods
In the absence of life.
With the clothes on my back,
Backpack of uncertainty,
And certainly,
I know the cold is gonna murder me.
And as I'm still alive,
I can picture every pace,
And I still can't feel
Both hands on my face.
And am I even half way,
Blood cold like a murderer.
Starting to believe
My trajectory is circular.
I've been here before,
I pray to be delivered,
But I'm [gullible, the prison always ]
I'm a sinner.
[Maintain as they say],
Try to spark up a flame.
But regardless,
I remained in the same place
Nonetheless, life, freedom,
I'm determined to wager,
So God up in heaven,
Listen to our prayer.
I would k** to survive,
So provide me the remedy,
And when I step inside,
[]
And I replied with a pride,
When implied was a warning.
Only now I understand
The advice set before me.
[They told me and restored me],
[They tried their] best to ward me,
I said not to worry,
That's the end of the story.
I'm sick and deformed,
And I miss being warm,
So stitch up my spirit,
My soul is so torn.
So God hoist up the light,
Fill the void in my heart,
Something's missing, like a night
Sky devoid of the stars.
I've lost my innocence,
No more toys in the yard,
[Only bots in my skin],
[Now poison the scars].
I hate resentment,
So lost for repentence.
My body would rather die
Before it ever gets corrected.
The future is uncertain,
If I end up lamented.
Oh God up in heaven,
I'm in need of intervention.
I'm so sorry,
And I swear to you I meant it.
Every second on this planet
Feels like a life sentence.
If I could reverse life,
I would choke down my pride,
Show myself it's just a quick way
To the exit.
I wanna say sorry,
I'm sorry I didn't listen,
And help me deserve forgiveness
For my hard headed decisions.
I'd bow and beg
Until my own back []
I'm sorry because I know
This has all been said before.
I swear my rebellion is unhealthy,
I come on bent knees,
Now please,
Will you help me?
And I chose to be deserted,
Now I know it wasn't worth it.
If you open up the door,
I know I don't even deserve it.
I'm certain,
With every impulse that my nerves give,
I manipulate my body
To disciplining my worthlessness.
But only if I see you again,
And that's what I would have said if my life didn't end.
So I depart
With this last one-sided correspondence,
Saying the same thing,
In my mind a thesaurus.
Alone in the heavens,
With a scar on my [heart],
As I resonate the gift
From regrets in my [heart].
So I wander the farthest,
The waters uncharted,
The sun didn't rise,
So my body [felt hardest].
If only you could hear me,
As my soul is above you,
I wish before I died,
I would have told you I love you.