Yeah you know sometimes I feel so out of touch with life, it just seems like I'm lost and directionless, [simply] in the middle of nowhere with no clue how to get back home. It's in these times of loneliness though, I realize the value of my loved ones and inversely how much I take them for granted. It's funny how it's easier to appreciate the warmth of your relationships between family and friends while you're suffering in the cold. I just hope I get my message across to them. Yeah. Before it's too late. [All in part] With the knowledge, A spark In the darkness. An artist, [The part] With a heart For catharsis. Hard fists, Frostbitten scarred lips, Resonate the gift, Reminiscent of guitar picks. So while I go on to the farthest, The waters uncharted, The sun doesn't rise, Like a shark in a tar pit. Let's follow the stars Right back where we started. That's ironic. I've been lost since I departed. The thrill is long gone, My soul is so cold. The quest now unfolds, Composure won't hold. I'm alone as I lust For the trust that I know, On a dark road [Covered in a gust of a snow]. One touch from the wind's Like a knife to the skin. [] take the burden Of my sin from within. And behold my stone Heart's froze to the bone, Up above the dome Is a full moon, no glow. A syndicate of snowflakes Quick to be hitting me, A white blizzard Eliminate the visibility. Critically conditioned, I'm lingering with infirmities. Frozen land, Each step feels like eternity. And Mother Nature Ain't showing me any courtesy. Below freezing, s** the life outta mercury. I [wake up, a nap], Take a drink from the flask, And walk the black path, On the brink I collapse. All eyes glued to the moon, With the pursuit for the truth. As I move to the tune, There ain't much I can do. Trapped in a frozen tomb, In the sadness of night. Navigate through the woods In the absence of life. With the clothes on my back, Backpack of uncertainty, And certainly, I know the cold is gonna murder me. And as I'm still alive, I can picture every pace, And I still can't feel Both hands on my face. And am I even half way, Blood cold like a murderer. Starting to believe My trajectory is circular. I've been here before, I pray to be delivered, But I'm [gullible, the prison always ] I'm a sinner. [Maintain as they say], Try to spark up a flame. But regardless, I remained in the same place Nonetheless, life, freedom, I'm determined to wager, So God up in heaven, Listen to our prayer. I would k** to survive, So provide me the remedy, And when I step inside, [] And I replied with a pride, When implied was a warning. Only now I understand The advice set before me. [They told me and restored me], [They tried their] best to ward me, I said not to worry, That's the end of the story. I'm sick and deformed, And I miss being warm, So stitch up my spirit, My soul is so torn. So God hoist up the light, Fill the void in my heart, Something's missing, like a night Sky devoid of the stars. I've lost my innocence, No more toys in the yard, [Only bots in my skin], [Now poison the scars]. I hate resentment, So lost for repentence. My body would rather die Before it ever gets corrected. The future is uncertain, If I end up lamented. Oh God up in heaven, I'm in need of intervention. I'm so sorry, And I swear to you I meant it. Every second on this planet Feels like a life sentence. If I could reverse life, I would choke down my pride, Show myself it's just a quick way To the exit. I wanna say sorry, I'm sorry I didn't listen, And help me deserve forgiveness For my hard headed decisions. I'd bow and beg Until my own back [] I'm sorry because I know This has all been said before. I swear my rebellion is unhealthy, I come on bent knees, Now please, Will you help me? And I chose to be deserted, Now I know it wasn't worth it. If you open up the door, I know I don't even deserve it. I'm certain, With every impulse that my nerves give, I manipulate my body To disciplining my worthlessness. But only if I see you again, And that's what I would have said if my life didn't end. So I depart With this last one-sided correspondence, Saying the same thing, In my mind a thesaurus. Alone in the heavens, With a scar on my [heart], As I resonate the gift From regrets in my [heart]. So I wander the farthest, The waters uncharted, The sun didn't rise, So my body [felt hardest]. If only you could hear me, As my soul is above you, I wish before I died, I would have told you I love you.