[Hook]
Nuthin' even matters (Nuthin' really matters)
Nuthin' even matters to me (When misery is all I see)
Nuthin' even matters (Nuthin' even matters)
Nuthin' even matters to me (When misery is all I see)
Mommy, you used to hold me, tell me I was the best
Anything in this world I want I could possess
All that made me want was all that I could get
I'm tryin' to survive, tell me how I live with these regrets?
How I live with these regrets
How I live with these regrets
How I… How I… How, how, how I
How I live with these regrets
How I live with these regrets
How I… How I… How, how, how
[Verse 1: eXquire]
I wake up in the morning no earlier than three
I scratch my a** and yawn, then I get up and go pee
Then Jimmy Neutron's on
This is my favorite episode where he goes through a time warp
And meets himself when he gets old, and he ain't sh**
I guess that I relate to a degree
My Momma claims she's proud of me
But I just cannot see how that could be
I gave up my whole future just to chase my dream
Now I feel like a loser who's failed at everything
(I mean) Maybe I shouldn't have dropped out in 10th grade
(I mean) Maybe I should've went to college up state
(I mean) Maybe I shouldn't have quit my good-a** job
Or swallowed them sleeping pills after the shock of it all
Or slapped the sh** out my ex, then mess with the other one
Consorted with hoes, popped pills like bubblegum
My life's a cornucopia of rigamarole
Which sounds like some type of dish
Can I offer a bowl? Its like…
[Hook]
[Verse 2]
My life is a b**h and I ain't got sh**
I know that sounds depressing, but it is what is it
My insecurities made me a leech for love
Happy just to get it anywhere that I could get it
Though I wasn't really feelin' her
Plastered at my photo shoot, drunk I was depressed
Like somehow I can pretend that my life's just not a mess
Then n***as have the nerve to try to question what I am
What you don't f**in' understand is this is all that I have left
And b**hes say that dumb sh**, “I'm too blessed to be stressed”
But I was blessed with this talent; all it do is make me stressed
All it do is make me guess: will I ever progress?
Is success the architect behind the heartache and the stress
I fight with every breath
Yet nobody sees the ???
And lately its getting crazy and I'm runnin' out of strength
??? so don't you try to play me
I ain't weak and I ain't lazy I'm just gettin' to the point where…
[Hook]