If this is life that I'm living then I wonder what d**h is like
With a million questions running, I've got the feeling that something is not right
I've tried to be alive, but I've fallen short
I am so sick of this cycle, there must be something more
This is endless
This is sickening
This is everything I never wanted it to be
This is hell
This can't be happening
I'm a failure, I'm a liar, I'm a hypocrite
I am not who I claim to be
What could you possibly see in me?
I could never turn my back on you
Grace like an ocean, I am lost in the depths of your truth
You have seen my heart and the wicked things I've done
And yet you call me "son"
This is my awakening, and my call to arms
Show me this world through the holes in your hands
I'm alive, I'm alive, I have been set free
I was blind but now my eyes are open, I can see I am flawed, I am flawed, but You have made me clean
I know I'm not perfect but I serve a perfect king
I am nothing
You are everything
Let this truth resonate in my soul
Take my life God, I give you control I have stumbled, I have fallen, I've grown weary, and yet I'm still walking
I've been stuck here with all these questions inside my head
But I will never forget the words that you have said
"You are the child of the king you have been set free. There is nothing that can separate you from me. I am the one that calls you son, I formed you in the womb, I conquered the grave, your home is not a tomb."
God this just can't be, I'm so unworthy but your grace has washed me clean and now I'm learning that you're changing everything and I am not the same, you made everything change...
When you called my name my heart stopped and our pulse became the same
When you calmed my soul I felt the earth shake and the mountains tremble
When you called my name I finally came alive again
When you call me son, I feel your blood in my veins and your breath in my lungs
When you call my name