If this is life that I'm living then I wonder what d**h is like With a million questions running, I've got the feeling that something is not right I've tried to be alive, but I've fallen short I am so sick of this cycle, there must be something more This is endless This is sickening This is everything I never wanted it to be This is hell This can't be happening I'm a failure, I'm a liar, I'm a hypocrite I am not who I claim to be What could you possibly see in me? I could never turn my back on you Grace like an ocean, I am lost in the depths of your truth You have seen my heart and the wicked things I've done And yet you call me "son" This is my awakening, and my call to arms Show me this world through the holes in your hands I'm alive, I'm alive, I have been set free I was blind but now my eyes are open, I can see I am flawed, I am flawed, but You have made me clean I know I'm not perfect but I serve a perfect king I am nothing You are everything Let this truth resonate in my soul Take my life God, I give you control I have stumbled, I have fallen, I've grown weary, and yet I'm still walking I've been stuck here with all these questions inside my head But I will never forget the words that you have said "You are the child of the king you have been set free. There is nothing that can separate you from me. I am the one that calls you son, I formed you in the womb, I conquered the grave, your home is not a tomb." God this just can't be, I'm so unworthy but your grace has washed me clean and now I'm learning that you're changing everything and I am not the same, you made everything change... When you called my name my heart stopped and our pulse became the same When you calmed my soul I felt the earth shake and the mountains tremble When you called my name I finally came alive again When you call me son, I feel your blood in my veins and your breath in my lungs When you call my name