I spent all of Christmas Eve fake angry at you for
Who knows what now or then and you spoke so fast
I just sat back relaxed and took you all in
I spent all of Christmas Eve trying to get warmer
After standing outside for hours knowing at this point
Id be lucky to get any sleep
And Ill toss and turn until the early morning
Happily ignoring that my blue jeans
Didnt do a f**ing thing for me
Against this cold
Sober or not, I locked everything you sent me
Cause whats better than seeing
What Im missing daily
I guess what Im trying to say is that
You might run, oh but I wont hide
Shed an ounce of light
On my half-hopeless life
Dont let me go back
And though Id like to say more
I guess, Ill just duck and cover
Almost praying that you trip over
The cluster of words I laid out before having to leave
But since youve taken the time to read so carefully
Everything Ive ever sent
I guess Ill spend the next few lines
Hoping and wishing
Yet thanking appropriately
You might run, oh but I wont hide
Shed an ounce of light
On my half-hopeless life
Dont let me go back
To Erin: Please read later
Cause I dont think I have the heart
To let you read this now
But if I had the heart
You know that I know better
This isnt how you say aloud
Dont let me go back