I stood up from that barstool
Just a half a drink away from being sick
I reached into my pocket
Pulled my ten year coin out
And left it for a tip
I tried to clear my head and figure out
Just where the hell it all went wrong
I can't say I'm surprised it's come to this
I'm just surprised it took this long
For all these years I've lived in fear
That what I was might be what I really am
Ain't no one bought this good guy bit
I'm a piece of sh**
The whole thing's been a sham
When I was younger I used to wonder
What could cause a man to just lie down and die
I wish that I was younger still
And I wish that I still had to wonder why
I've got a wife and kid at home
They ain't never seen this ugly side of me
I gave my life to Jesus six years back
But you know they've only known me three
When I was younger I used to wonder
What could ever bring a man to want to k**
It scares the sh** right out of me to admit
That I don't have to wonder still
I thought this would be devastating
But you know, I feel relieved
The hardest part was breaking all the hearts
Of all those people who believed
Please, dear God, I'm on my knees
Just tell me where the hell it all went wrong
I can't say I'm surprised it's come to this
I'm just surprised it took this long