Martin Zellar - Ten-Year Coin lyrics

I stood up from that barstool Just a half a drink away from being sick I reached into my pocket Pulled my ten year coin out And left it for a tip I tried to clear my head and figure out Just where the hell it all went wrong I can't say I'm surprised it's come to this I'm just surprised it took this long For all these years I've lived in fear That what I was might be what I really am Ain't no one bought this good guy bit I'm a piece of sh** The whole thing's been a sham When I was younger I used to wonder What could cause a man to just lie down and die I wish that I was younger still And I wish that I still had to wonder why I've got a wife and kid at home They ain't never seen this ugly side of me I gave my life to Jesus six years back But you know they've only known me three When I was younger I used to wonder What could ever bring a man to want to k** It scares the sh** right out of me to admit That I don't have to wonder still I thought this would be devastating But you know, I feel relieved The hardest part was breaking all the hearts Of all those people who believed Please, dear God, I'm on my knees Just tell me where the hell it all went wrong I can't say I'm surprised it's come to this I'm just surprised it took this long