[Verse 1]
I'm turnt outta my mind (mind...)
My mind can't even think (think...)
These times I feel I should die (die...)
These times make me feel weak (weak...)
These weeks feeling so long (long...)
So long to life it's a suicide
So long a life, and I feel deprived
But I long this life and I feel alive (and I feel alive...)
Liquor in my cup
No other mixing ain't good for my blood
Pool full of liquor, my lungs wanna flood
Drown in this pool full of liquor and love
This pain erase for a moment, that's all
My face is numb
I can't feel my jaw
And if I fall, I pray that I wake
Away from the sorrows I go through each day (day...)
[Hook]
I just wanna fade away [x4]
[Verse 2]
I'm burnt out from this drink (drink...)
This drink got me all red (red...)
In these times, I feel I should fly (fly...)
Smoking OGs, straight to my head (head...)
My choices seeming so wrong (wrong...)
So wrong, I feel Imma lose my sane
It's so wrong, I feels I can't lose the pain
Tho its wrong, I fear that I'm new again (that I'm new again...)
Losing my cool
f**ed up the party, I'm acting a fool
Lounge full of b**hes, they choosing up too
I lounge in this b**h til I'm ready to move
I'm f**ed up, doubled in vision
Guns up, suicide mission
And if I fail, I pray that I wake
Away from the sorrows I go through each day (day...)
[Hook]
[Verse 3]
Yeah
Into the sky, let me fly to the moon
Or I die with the Sun
When that liquor invades, in my veins
But it's keeping my flame lit
f** it, I drive and I lane switch
These problems, I'm done, so I ain't sh**
Entertaining your thoughts while I'm wasted
I wanna pa** out
I put the gun to my head and I blast now
I'm laying all in the stairs with my flask out
Some girl in my bed with her a** out
Cause I f**ed, what? I'm suppose to be proud now?
And I'm suppose to be the man now?
f** that!
I need more Jack, I need more Hennessy
Privilege, Black, I need m...
Hold up, let me gather myself
As I fight my wars, with my demons
Til my own life, I just keep deceiving
No simple reasons
Just complex theories and different seasons
Zodiac signs and I keep believing
It's hard to maintain if it keeps repeating
The same old page, that I'm fleeing
Torn to pieces
I should take my life like Michael Keaton
Cause this my mind, I'm tired of breathing
A few more sips just to disappear from
The world I fear my kids to live on
The world out here just to interfere on
From the react, until I swear this
Life is better, after d**h is
And I'm convinced tonight I'm destined
As I write this note to my fam and friends, its
Sincerely yours
Marion Write as I sit on the floor
Gun in my hand, that I placed to my jaw
Squeezing the trigger, the safety is off
Pray to...***GUNSHOT***