Marion Write - Fade Away lyrics

[Verse 1] I'm turnt outta my mind (mind...) My mind can't even think (think...) These times I feel I should die (die...) These times make me feel weak (weak...) These weeks feeling so long (long...) So long to life it's a suicide So long a life, and I feel deprived But I long this life and I feel alive (and I feel alive...) Liquor in my cup No other mixing ain't good for my blood Pool full of liquor, my lungs wanna flood Drown in this pool full of liquor and love This pain erase for a moment, that's all My face is numb I can't feel my jaw And if I fall, I pray that I wake Away from the sorrows I go through each day (day...) [Hook] I just wanna fade away [x4] [Verse 2] I'm burnt out from this drink (drink...) This drink got me all red (red...) In these times, I feel I should fly (fly...) Smoking OGs, straight to my head (head...) My choices seeming so wrong (wrong...) So wrong, I feel Imma lose my sane It's so wrong, I feels I can't lose the pain Tho its wrong, I fear that I'm new again (that I'm new again...) Losing my cool f**ed up the party, I'm acting a fool Lounge full of b**hes, they choosing up too I lounge in this b**h til I'm ready to move I'm f**ed up, doubled in vision Guns up, suicide mission And if I fail, I pray that I wake Away from the sorrows I go through each day (day...) [Hook] [Verse 3] Yeah Into the sky, let me fly to the moon Or I die with the Sun When that liquor invades, in my veins But it's keeping my flame lit f** it, I drive and I lane switch These problems, I'm done, so I ain't sh** Entertaining your thoughts while I'm wasted I wanna pa** out I put the gun to my head and I blast now I'm laying all in the stairs with my flask out Some girl in my bed with her a** out Cause I f**ed, what? I'm suppose to be proud now? And I'm suppose to be the man now? f** that! I need more Jack, I need more Hennessy Privilege, Black, I need m... Hold up, let me gather myself As I fight my wars, with my demons Til my own life, I just keep deceiving No simple reasons Just complex theories and different seasons Zodiac signs and I keep believing It's hard to maintain if it keeps repeating The same old page, that I'm fleeing Torn to pieces I should take my life like Michael Keaton Cause this my mind, I'm tired of breathing A few more sips just to disappear from The world I fear my kids to live on The world out here just to interfere on From the react, until I swear this Life is better, after d**h is And I'm convinced tonight I'm destined As I write this note to my fam and friends, its Sincerely yours Marion Write as I sit on the floor Gun in my hand, that I placed to my jaw Squeezing the trigger, the safety is off Pray to...***GUNSHOT***