I'm a person with weak beliefs
The beliefs of things i'll never be
My past is steady haunting me
What if they close in and suffocate me?
I can't breathe
The people surround me and is in arms reach
I try so hard and end with anxiety
People call me overdramatic
If i die, don't come to funeral
Don't even come when they bury me
I'm a enochlophobic
I have a fear of crowds
The quickest way to speed up my heart
Is by surrounding me now
In a public place
It's like a torture chamber now
If i were a man, would you understand me
But i'm a woman and that's killing my sound
I hate crowds, crowds hate me
I'm a enochlophobic
I get anxiety
My panic attacks is like a breathing challenge
Will i die or will i breathe?
What if they kill me?
What if they take advantage of me?
Do they hate my existence?
Do they judge my attire and height?
This is killing me
I need to escape before i lose my sight
And my legs go numb and i fall to my feet
I'm a person with weak beliefs
The beliefs of things i'll never be
My past is steady haunting me
What if they close in and suffocate me?
I can't breathe
The people surround me and is in arms reach
I try so hard and end with anxiety
People call me overdramatic
If i die, don't come to funeral
Don't even come when they bury me
I'm a enochlophobic
I have a fear of crowds
The quickest way to speed up my heart
Is by surrounding me now
In a public place
It's like a torture chamber now
If i were a man, would you understand me
But i'm a woman and that's killing my sound
A mask protects my face from the public
It protects my identity
I stay in a corner and hug my legs
And hide my face in my knees
I try to pray for recovery
But it's hard to go near people
Even if they're two feet away from me
Six feet might be a precaution
But i need a few more to feel a sense of relief
I'm shaking, i'm trembling
My body is resembling
A deer in the cold
It feels the floor is disassembling
If i call for help
They'll say to breathe
But breathing feels like i'm rebelling
I can't breathe
The people surround me and is in arms reach
I try so hard and end with anxiety
People call me overdramatic
If i die, don't come to funeral
Don't even come when they bury me
I'm a enochlophobic
I have a fear of crowds
The quickest way to speed up my heart
Is by surrounding me now
In a public place
It's like a torture chamber now
If i were a man, would you understand me
But i'm a woman and that's killing my sound