Lil Mama Aisha - Enochlophobic lyrics

I'm a person with weak beliefs The beliefs of things i'll never be My past is steady haunting me What if they close in and suffocate me? I can't breathe The people surround me and is in arms reach I try so hard and end with anxiety People call me overdramatic If i die, don't come to funeral Don't even come when they bury me I'm a enochlophobic I have a fear of crowds The quickest way to speed up my heart Is by surrounding me now In a public place It's like a torture chamber now If i were a man, would you understand me But i'm a woman and that's killing my sound I hate crowds, crowds hate me I'm a enochlophobic I get anxiety My panic attacks is like a breathing challenge Will i die or will i breathe? What if they kill me? What if they take advantage of me? Do they hate my existence? Do they judge my attire and height? This is killing me I need to escape before i lose my sight And my legs go numb and i fall to my feet I'm a person with weak beliefs The beliefs of things i'll never be My past is steady haunting me What if they close in and suffocate me? I can't breathe The people surround me and is in arms reach I try so hard and end with anxiety People call me overdramatic If i die, don't come to funeral Don't even come when they bury me I'm a enochlophobic I have a fear of crowds The quickest way to speed up my heart Is by surrounding me now In a public place It's like a torture chamber now If i were a man, would you understand me But i'm a woman and that's killing my sound A mask protects my face from the public It protects my identity I stay in a corner and hug my legs And hide my face in my knees I try to pray for recovery But it's hard to go near people Even if they're two feet away from me Six feet might be a precaution But i need a few more to feel a sense of relief I'm shaking, i'm trembling My body is resembling A deer in the cold It feels the floor is disassembling If i call for help They'll say to breathe But breathing feels like i'm rebelling I can't breathe The people surround me and is in arms reach I try so hard and end with anxiety People call me overdramatic If i die, don't come to funeral Don't even come when they bury me I'm a enochlophobic I have a fear of crowds The quickest way to speed up my heart Is by surrounding me now In a public place It's like a torture chamber now If i were a man, would you understand me But i'm a woman and that's killing my sound