[Intro]
Eish...
You know the outer me seems to be more happier than the inner me
Man I lie about my feelings everyday
And its kinda funny how I pretend to be a saint
But let me paint a picture
Sorta like a museum of my life
Eish (yeah)
Oh my,uh!
Aha
[Verse 1]
Here we go again
There's a lot on my mind
I feel the pressure on my shoulders but I still say "I got this"
Granny saying,"Man up"
Talking bills to pay up
Mommy underpaid
Wish I wasn't living but I gotta embrace my life
I'm praying for strength
Lotta things did change
Used to go to church
n***a in a sequence
Now its a pattern, I'm thinking a lot like
Where do I stand?
I guess on the ground
I'm longing to be on top of the world
(On top of the world n***a)
My dreams are bigger
My bed feeling double weight
Guess I gotta swish up to the double bed
Uh, hustling for dough
Lie to make money
b**hes asking airtime
(f** em)
Man I'm sleeping late
Waking up early
Before sunrise
Tryna kick game but I dunno karate
Living life like it is but something gotta change
Talking life ain't fair
Females saying "No" before I even speak
I gotta live above the breadline just to have y'all
Oh my, God bless my hustle.
[Hook]
What did I do to deserve this?
Am I really paying for my parent's sins?
All I want is money hope you got it
My mind twisted and I hate it
Life ain't fair my motto
They say its a game but I never win
I'm losing myself at this life thing
Tryna stay put but I'm f**ing breaking
What did I do to deserve this?
Am I really paying for parent's sins?
All I want is money hope you got it
My mind twisted and I hate it.
[Verse 2]
I'm really trying hard
I was thinking money
I had to do something then I introduced
(Cooler Hooler Beats)
Thinking it would pay up
Ain't nobody wanna do business yeah
Back at home, mommy sayin,"I gotchu son"
Daddy doesn't care, he don't even know me
I felt like punching him but then I thought Exodus
Respect-your-elders-to live-longer
Tryna run to my aunt, she running somewhere
Maybe its the reason she don't want me in her house
Now I'm all alone, in a cruel world
Thinking about my scars, I gotta get 'didas to symbolize my sh**
I swear, if I tell you about my pain
n***a you would bleed too
My friends so scared
They don't f** with me anymore
I guess they realised, I always hated gang bang
My circle getting smaller
I know who gon' be there when I finna fall
Relationships getting weaker and weaker
My mother-son relationship better than my father-son
Playing happy family when your friends pitch up
Behind closed doors
sh** is too ugly
Tryna edit the picture but I'm failing cause I ain't God, man this hurts
Now I'm sipping Russian Bear
Tryna forget but my problem remains
Had suicidal thoughts
I was too weak that's why I'm still alive
sh** ain't going my way
I need some deflection
Its a pity we don't get to choose the perfect life
I could've played my cards right
Put the joker aside
Live good life but here I am asking questions like.
[Hook]
What did I do to deserve this?
Am I really paying for my parent's sins?
All I want is money hope you got it
My mind twisted and I hate it
Life ain't fair my motto
They say its a game but I never win
I'm losing myself at this life thing
Tryna stay put but I'm f**ing breaking
What did I do to deserve this?
Am I really paying for parent's sins?
All I want is money hope you got it
My mind twisted and I hate it.
[Outro]
Eish (x12)
Yeses
Eish (x16)
(Its KindaCool you idiot)