KindaCool - Eish lyrics

[Intro] Eish... You know the outer me seems to be more happier than the inner me Man I lie about my feelings everyday And its kinda funny how I pretend to be a saint But let me paint a picture Sorta like a museum of my life Eish (yeah) Oh my,uh! Aha [Verse 1] Here we go again There's a lot on my mind I feel the pressure on my shoulders but I still say "I got this" Granny saying,"Man up" Talking bills to pay up Mommy underpaid Wish I wasn't living but I gotta embrace my life I'm praying for strength Lotta things did change Used to go to church n***a in a sequence Now its a pattern, I'm thinking a lot like Where do I stand? I guess on the ground I'm longing to be on top of the world (On top of the world n***a) My dreams are bigger My bed feeling double weight Guess I gotta swish up to the double bed Uh, hustling for dough Lie to make money b**hes asking airtime (f** em) Man I'm sleeping late Waking up early Before sunrise Tryna kick game but I dunno karate Living life like it is but something gotta change Talking life ain't fair Females saying "No" before I even speak I gotta live above the breadline just to have y'all Oh my, God bless my hustle. [Hook] What did I do to deserve this? Am I really paying for my parent's sins? All I want is money hope you got it My mind twisted and I hate it Life ain't fair my motto They say its a game but I never win I'm losing myself at this life thing Tryna stay put but I'm f**ing breaking What did I do to deserve this? Am I really paying for parent's sins? All I want is money hope you got it My mind twisted and I hate it. [Verse 2] I'm really trying hard I was thinking money I had to do something then I introduced (Cooler Hooler Beats) Thinking it would pay up Ain't nobody wanna do business yeah Back at home, mommy sayin,"I gotchu son" Daddy doesn't care, he don't even know me I felt like punching him but then I thought Exodus Respect-your-elders-to live-longer Tryna run to my aunt, she running somewhere Maybe its the reason she don't want me in her house Now I'm all alone, in a cruel world Thinking about my scars, I gotta get 'didas to symbolize my sh** I swear, if I tell you about my pain n***a you would bleed too My friends so scared They don't f** with me anymore I guess they realised, I always hated gang bang My circle getting smaller I know who gon' be there when I finna fall Relationships getting weaker and weaker My mother-son relationship better than my father-son Playing happy family when your friends pitch up Behind closed doors sh** is too ugly Tryna edit the picture but I'm failing cause I ain't God, man this hurts Now I'm sipping Russian Bear Tryna forget but my problem remains Had suicidal thoughts I was too weak that's why I'm still alive sh** ain't going my way I need some deflection Its a pity we don't get to choose the perfect life I could've played my cards right Put the joker aside Live good life but here I am asking questions like. [Hook] What did I do to deserve this? Am I really paying for my parent's sins? All I want is money hope you got it My mind twisted and I hate it Life ain't fair my motto They say its a game but I never win I'm losing myself at this life thing Tryna stay put but I'm f**ing breaking What did I do to deserve this? Am I really paying for parent's sins? All I want is money hope you got it My mind twisted and I hate it. [Outro] Eish (x12) Yeses Eish (x16) (Its KindaCool you idiot)