[Verse 1]
And I just noticed that clocks ticking
sh** coulda been a lot different
If I stopped popping and stopped sniffin
Then I probly could've gotten up…
They tell me I can't see that I need to check in to rehab
b**h I been there now im back here
So that bullsh** stays in last year
Am i scared to OD?
Man I've done that so many times that everyone in the ER knows me
sh** those are my homies…
And im pretty sure that im insecure
But my heads so numb I can't even tell
When my lifes falling down around me
How can I focus on the records I need to sell?
Im troubled what do you mean momma?
Im a man im 18 arent I?
I know I didn't go to school
But I hate the way they look at me mama
Im just like everyone else
Don't act like im a monster
Baby im not the reason you cry alone at night am i?
And she said maybe but, don't call me baby youre
Not the guy I fell in love with he's been gone for years
And I don't know you now
So now I don't sleep for nothing
Walk the streets at night alone
How can I see the light
When i dont got a ray of hope
[Verse 2]
You know its bad when nightmares are better than real life
If your dad was dying and your mom was gone
Tell me what would that feel like?
And they say somebody out there always has it way worse than you
Well If that's true sh** then I pray for you..
Yea I pray for you
Maybe one day you'll make it through
And we can laugh about this
And reminisce about a thing or two
And I just hope that im around long enough to be getting married
Cause there ain't a thing to see but your eyelids when youre getting buried
Im numb..
Can't feel a thing ive gone numb
Didn't take no novacane but my whole brain has gone numb..
I still walk around with a smile on so they don't know somethings wrong
Cause that would bring unwanted attention
That's the last thing that I want
Don't ask me what im on
Cause you wouldn't wanna hear my answer
If you knew what I was on you'd get why I don't give a f** about cancer
Dont ask me what im on
Some sh** i stole from my mom
Yea i keep on rolling that makes it harder to roll on..