[Intro]
Oh f**....just another f**ed up day, to my f**ed up life. Aww, f**....Why do I gotta go through another f**in' day of this sh**?? I don't think I can stand it anymore...I don't think I can stand the way it was 5 years ago. And here I am, once again, another f**ing day!! I've been putting up with bullsh**....since day f**ing one!!
[Verse 1]
Back in the days when I was nothin' but a suicidalist or somethin'
I sat here thinkin' to myself "I hate these motherf**ers"
I wished everyone would die or leave me the f** alone
Homicide was on my mind, I'm wishin' the devil had a clone
Good vs Evil, I was wicked back in '89
Had my own hitlist, whippin' across the enemy lines
Twisted popularity was scarin' me with d**h threats
Used to steal my lunch money, payin' with d**h, thought about d**h
Unloadin' a clip in his f**in' throat, I was the reaper of the soul
I could take his last breath, takin' tests and go to school
Comin' in full of vengeance, I'm sick of bein' the outcast
One of these days I'll build a bomb and watch the whole school blast
Went to BuildingBombs.com and got the recipe
Thinkin' about this bomb goin' off is gettin' the best of me
Blasphemy, one on one, I was the subject of the gun
Livin the life, I got no love, this is for fighting, this is for fun
This is for all the devil's sons and all the cla**es, kings and queens
All the jocks that are playing sports, and all of the b**hes who couldn't for me
I'm loading up the ammo, dressed in camo, ready for the war
Hit the locks upon the door, no one's getting out for sure
Every motherf**er in this school's gonna die
And I don't give a f** how much they pray I'm blasting anyway
8:02 on the clock, you could hear the first shot
8:36 son of a b**h, the bombs are going off!!
[Explosions, screaming]
You hear the sirens and screamin', they sound like hot burning demons
I try to run from it all, but my legs got no more feelin'
As I look down in pure shock, my legs are blown the f** off
I'm pourin blood from my waist and blowing smoke as I cough
I cannot move, I cannot breathe, why the f** am I living?
Or am I already dead, and Hell's judgement been given?
My visions fading to darkness, feeling hopeless with d**h
But I no longer wanna die, smell the smoke of my flesh
God forgive me, if you can, if you can't I understand
But my whole life has been hell since I was born into sin
I tried to blame it on society instead of myself
I tried to blame it on the Devil and now I'm burning in Hell!!!
....and it hurts