[Voicemail]
Hey Ryan
I just wanted to check in and see how you were doing
And I know it seems crazy cause its the third time I've called you
And I understand that you're busy
But don't forget about us little people ok?
Just give me a call back when you can
Goodbye
[Verse 1]
Still been missing all these calls
Cause I keep the phone on silent
I been focused on a plane/pain [?]
That I'm not sure that I can buy/bine it [?]
Cause the second I am flying
All this stress keeps on piling
And the world weighs it down
While the pressure keeps rising
But I keep climbing
Even though I'll never finish
Cause that end is endless
I'm scared to see the ground diminish
I'm just trying to strike gold
I pray to God I got the ticket
Terrified because I know my life can end in just a minute
If we didn't want to end it in the past [?]
Couple hundred at my shows
But how many at my casket
I push everyone away
I don't know this had happened
I'm too focused on my goals
And tryna get out to the ma**es
All I do is sacrifice
I'm covered up in welts
It only pays off
When people tell me that I felt
I'm just tryna give the world a better state of mental health
I said I'm tryna give the world what I couldn't give myself
Motherf**er that's real
[Voicemail]
Hey Ryan its Ashley
I was just calling to check in again
And see how everything was going
I know you've been super busy with
Music and travelling
But I just wanted to make sure you're staying on top with every with school
And, I miss you a lot
But err stay out of trouble
I'll talk to you soon baby
[Verse 2]
When I'm in that cla**room imma different person
Twiddling thumbs
Sweating acting all nerves
Panic attacks
A couple times
And each one its a circus
As I try to act normal
And not cause a disturbance
And then anxiety kicks
I feel like I'm boxed in
Depression exists [?]
Because I feel like I'm not in
The place I belong
And I feel paralyzed caught in, this cycle
And I never see no signs of it stopping
Why can't anybody see that people think different
I'm never using this degree
So why the f** should I get it
I go to sleep
And all I dream about is waking and living
Why should I sit in this cla**room
When I can go make a difference
sh** I never tried hard
But I was still a star student
I knew everything I learned pa** the Eighth Grade's useless
Except a couple things
What they been teaching me is stupid
I've been stressing over it
Even though imma never use it
And its clear that imma genius
Get these teachers off my penis
Shoving papers in my face
And promising that imma need them
You're puttin' limitations on the ones who never seen 'em [?]
And I feel like I was put on Earth to lift them up and free 'em
God damn!
I want them to believe in themselves
When they got nowhere to go
I'll be the person to help
See 'm just tryna give the world a better state of mental health
I said I'm tryna give the world what I could never give myself
And that's real
[Voicemail]
What's up Ryan
The hell man you to cool to answer anybodys calls these days
I'm drunk as sh** back home man
Be nice to see you every once in a while
Whatever man hope you're having a good time
Doing all your music stuff
Don't forget about your real friends right
Cya
[Verse 3]
To be honest I don't know where to start
When I said I need support
You left me up in the dark
I couldn't do this sh** alone
You wouldn't pick up the part
You sat back and relaxed
And thought it'd all fall apart
I brought you out to my shows
And prolly changed your life
Meeting all your favorite rappers
Every couple of nights
I tried to make ya'll the happiest
Give it all
And despite, all my efforts it was taken for granted
And that ignites and starts a fire inside
That sh** makes you wanna go out
And retire the guys
Spitting up some bullsh**
I'm retiring lies
And bringing real back
I know ya'll can feel that
I always been myself
b**h I'm still that
So here I am again
All on my own
Making music and just praying I take over the globe
I might have left but you're the ones
Who always left me alone
So when you give me a call
I'll never answer the phone
And I'm gone!