[Voicemail] Hey Ryan I just wanted to check in and see how you were doing And I know it seems crazy cause its the third time I've called you And I understand that you're busy But don't forget about us little people ok? Just give me a call back when you can Goodbye [Verse 1] Still been missing all these calls Cause I keep the phone on silent I been focused on a plane/pain [?] That I'm not sure that I can buy/bine it [?] Cause the second I am flying All this stress keeps on piling And the world weighs it down While the pressure keeps rising But I keep climbing Even though I'll never finish Cause that end is endless I'm scared to see the ground diminish I'm just trying to strike gold I pray to God I got the ticket Terrified because I know my life can end in just a minute If we didn't want to end it in the past [?] Couple hundred at my shows But how many at my casket I push everyone away I don't know this had happened I'm too focused on my goals And tryna get out to the ma**es All I do is sacrifice I'm covered up in welts It only pays off When people tell me that I felt I'm just tryna give the world a better state of mental health I said I'm tryna give the world what I couldn't give myself Motherf**er that's real [Voicemail] Hey Ryan its Ashley I was just calling to check in again And see how everything was going I know you've been super busy with Music and travelling But I just wanted to make sure you're staying on top with every with school And, I miss you a lot But err stay out of trouble I'll talk to you soon baby [Verse 2] When I'm in that cla**room imma different person Twiddling thumbs Sweating acting all nerves Panic attacks A couple times And each one its a circus As I try to act normal And not cause a disturbance And then anxiety kicks I feel like I'm boxed in Depression exists [?] Because I feel like I'm not in The place I belong And I feel paralyzed caught in, this cycle And I never see no signs of it stopping Why can't anybody see that people think different I'm never using this degree So why the f** should I get it I go to sleep And all I dream about is waking and living Why should I sit in this cla**room When I can go make a difference sh** I never tried hard But I was still a star student I knew everything I learned pa** the Eighth Grade's useless Except a couple things What they been teaching me is stupid I've been stressing over it Even though imma never use it And its clear that imma genius Get these teachers off my penis Shoving papers in my face And promising that imma need them You're puttin' limitations on the ones who never seen 'em [?] And I feel like I was put on Earth to lift them up and free 'em God damn! I want them to believe in themselves When they got nowhere to go I'll be the person to help See 'm just tryna give the world a better state of mental health I said I'm tryna give the world what I could never give myself And that's real [Voicemail] What's up Ryan The hell man you to cool to answer anybodys calls these days I'm drunk as sh** back home man Be nice to see you every once in a while Whatever man hope you're having a good time Doing all your music stuff Don't forget about your real friends right Cya [Verse 3] To be honest I don't know where to start When I said I need support You left me up in the dark I couldn't do this sh** alone You wouldn't pick up the part You sat back and relaxed And thought it'd all fall apart I brought you out to my shows And prolly changed your life Meeting all your favorite rappers Every couple of nights I tried to make ya'll the happiest Give it all And despite, all my efforts it was taken for granted And that ignites and starts a fire inside That sh** makes you wanna go out And retire the guys Spitting up some bullsh** I'm retiring lies And bringing real back I know ya'll can feel that I always been myself b**h I'm still that So here I am again All on my own Making music and just praying I take over the globe I might have left but you're the ones Who always left me alone So when you give me a call I'll never answer the phone And I'm gone!