you use the word ‘beautiful' to describe things
and i derive meaning by connecting things in my brain with other
things in my brain.
it feels important to read ~6 or 7 non-fiction books per year
about like, the atrocities of power or man or world war two or
something,
in order to have a more encompa**ing range of things in your brain
to connect with other things in your brain.
you think i am ugly because of something someone has taught you
i feel worried and anxious and depressed because of something
in my brain connecting with something else in my brain,
which is not my brain, but is chunks of
your brain, adolf hitler's brain, gene simmons' brain,
albert einstein's brain,
et. al.
while listening to a song by the mountain goats today, i felt
overcome with ‘beauty' and i felt a tear on my face
doing schoolwork can relieve depression and
today i felt less lonely because of
the square root of two ‘over' two
being the sin of the radian
pi ‘over' four
being able to dominate abstract mathematical hierarchies gives
purpose to my life
what am i doing
drinking an iced soy latte