I can't take much more
With all to hide, I don this guise, and
Smile and I mask it all
That smile hides a wretched man plotting self-demise
I scream at the sky as the floodgates burst
I went from ignored to the scum of the Earth
My head is in another place
Hoping for some lucky ace
To lift away the hurt
You f**ing hate me, don't you? Well
I hate me more, 'cuz
When I fumble at each open door
A slew of trapdoors just conjure up, with the enticing lure of a
Better life
God, and I keep f**ing falling for it!
Snap me out of this!
Someone help
I've trapped myself
In this rotting tomb
My descent
Was bound to happen
Now watch me fall
I'm burning every bridge that I've ever built
With a blade in my fever dream fantasy, I give
I'm a cyst, and I'm only here just to prove my worth
Even though I'm not worth a thing, I just want to feel
SAFE
Someone help
I've trapped myself
In this rotting tomb
My descent
Was bound to happen
Now watch me fall
Am I losing my mind?
'Cuz every turn, there's more
Fuel for these thoughts
To fester and take on life
I can't take this anymore!
WHY?!