I'm deaf to what you say every time you raises your voice
All I hear is what I want
Later on get drowned in sadden thoughts that ravages my brain
I even Tried hurting myself to stop the pain
But It cant... It can't stop , How I feel nor what we've done.
I can't stop these emotions.
but when your mad…. you do.
I try to hide my broken heart with a fake smile.
But how long can I keep pretending before I break down.
I would say I love you but that's saying too much.
I hate! showing my weakness.
I would just hug you but that requires me to physically touch you.
But god dammit i love the way it feels when we hug.
I'm not that use to showing my affection - so i despise it.
When we fight it breaks me so bad, I can't even look you in the eyes.
But i love the way we stare into each other eyes, slowly but surely freezing time.
I love you so much but sometimes don't even act like it.
sometimes i put on a frown so you can come ask me- what's wrong.
sometimes I put my head down so you can lift me up, look me in my pupils and kiss me.
ohh so gently.
I love our little fights
BY Jeffrey Peebles Jr