[Verse 1]
I just painted every visual memory we ever had of us
Ofcourse it lacked the trust
And it was filled with lust
Now it's covered in dust
Cuz it was never enough
At the time
And every single time when I cut the line
You came right back chemistry divine
But I'm sitting here in my lab
Mixing these potions and sh**
Mixing emotions and sh**
Sitting here painting my feelings and heard this
So I'm working
Remember her t**ng
And I was lurking
And peeping in the peek hole
Kept the secret from all the people
We were something
We fell in love
I was discovering my talents and such
And she was having some fun
But then time past
Not as much love as the start
We started slipping til she broke my heart
And all I got now is this stupid canvas
With her new boy posting stupid candids
Nah but I ain't wit it
I'm an artist and I'm winning
You two drowning while I'm swimming
You two drowning while I'm swimming
I'm running from the honeys
Running to the hunderds
All I want is so many hundreds
So many hundreds
All I want is so many hundreds
All I want is so many hundreds
Yeah because of you
I can not fall in love
Every girl seem the same to me
You're making me go insane b
You're making me go insane b
I love you but I hate our past
That's some present sh** I couldn't make it last
For the future I'll have to laugh
But what's the aftermath?
Always home
All alone
In my bed
Off my phone
Zoned out
Headphones blown out
So I take all of this paint and throw it down on the ground
But when I did that she turned around
She now trying to love me again
Cuz I stopped caring and messed with her friend
So now she juggling with 2 people
I should tell her boy she trynna make a sequal
But that's just drama
So I let her back in
But It won't happen again
So just know you ain't getting sh**
Like that diamond necklace you still wear
And the letters that you still read
And all the guidance you still need
And all the sh** that I bought for you
And all the support that I went thru
Maybe I still love you
She won't say too much cuz she ain't trynna get let down
Not another melt down
She fell on her knees
(And prayed)
Because I told her if you don't pray you will not see better days
So she changed her ways
She changed her way
Now she seeing better days
Maybe I'm sad
And she's happy
Without me
But nah I doubt it
Cuz she always trynna meet up and constantly crying
And I'm fine
But I wish I knew love
But I wish I knew love
Start the hookah
Call some girls up and start hook up
I won't falling in love again
Music is my current girlfriend
And if you hate us that's fine
Cuz me and her are devine
No time for relationship goals
That leaves me less time for the hooks and the flows
But when I leave the studio I'm all alone
My mind races you pay me in moans
Different from being at parties you set me in stone
Get in my heart and grab every inch
Second you leave I instantly switch
Wanna go back out and cruise with the baddest
We can't keep doing this gotta find balance
You play with my thoughts
You pull me apart
We started together but we will end at the start
We will end at the start
Nothing
Name is Jake and I'm running...
But nobody really know me by Jake anymore
It's all J. Nick every place that I go
Everytime that we roll up
Up to the party
All these dimes and they getting naughty
See you there just strung out
Like your new life ripped the fun out
But I'm chilling here with the tribe
These nights I'm feeling alive
But just thought of you makes me die
A lot of sh** that I regret
A lot I wanna forget
And yeah I love you music you're like a girl to me and you the best
And all my old sh** is white and black
It's called the past cuz you can't get it back