J. Nick - Painting lyrics

[Verse 1] I just painted every visual memory we ever had of us Ofcourse it lacked the trust And it was filled with lust Now it's covered in dust Cuz it was never enough At the time And every single time when I cut the line You came right back chemistry divine But I'm sitting here in my lab Mixing these potions and sh** Mixing emotions and sh** Sitting here painting my feelings and heard this So I'm working Remember her t**ng And I was lurking And peeping in the peek hole Kept the secret from all the people We were something We fell in love I was discovering my talents and such And she was having some fun But then time past Not as much love as the start We started slipping til she broke my heart And all I got now is this stupid canvas With her new boy posting stupid candids Nah but I ain't wit it I'm an artist and I'm winning You two drowning while I'm swimming You two drowning while I'm swimming I'm running from the honeys Running to the hunderds All I want is so many hundreds So many hundreds All I want is so many hundreds All I want is so many hundreds Yeah because of you I can not fall in love Every girl seem the same to me You're making me go insane b You're making me go insane b I love you but I hate our past That's some present sh** I couldn't make it last For the future I'll have to laugh But what's the aftermath? Always home All alone In my bed Off my phone Zoned out Headphones blown out So I take all of this paint and throw it down on the ground But when I did that she turned around She now trying to love me again Cuz I stopped caring and messed with her friend So now she juggling with 2 people I should tell her boy she trynna make a sequal But that's just drama So I let her back in But It won't happen again So just know you ain't getting sh** Like that diamond necklace you still wear And the letters that you still read And all the guidance you still need And all the sh** that I bought for you And all the support that I went thru Maybe I still love you She won't say too much cuz she ain't trynna get let down Not another melt down She fell on her knees (And prayed) Because I told her if you don't pray you will not see better days So she changed her ways She changed her way Now she seeing better days Maybe I'm sad And she's happy Without me But nah I doubt it Cuz she always trynna meet up and constantly crying And I'm fine But I wish I knew love But I wish I knew love Start the hookah Call some girls up and start hook up I won't falling in love again Music is my current girlfriend And if you hate us that's fine Cuz me and her are devine No time for relationship goals That leaves me less time for the hooks and the flows But when I leave the studio I'm all alone My mind races you pay me in moans Different from being at parties you set me in stone Get in my heart and grab every inch Second you leave I instantly switch Wanna go back out and cruise with the baddest We can't keep doing this gotta find balance You play with my thoughts You pull me apart We started together but we will end at the start We will end at the start Nothing Name is Jake and I'm running... But nobody really know me by Jake anymore It's all J. Nick every place that I go Everytime that we roll up Up to the party All these dimes and they getting naughty See you there just strung out Like your new life ripped the fun out But I'm chilling here with the tribe These nights I'm feeling alive But just thought of you makes me die A lot of sh** that I regret A lot I wanna forget And yeah I love you music you're like a girl to me and you the best And all my old sh** is white and black It's called the past cuz you can't get it back