It ain't no point to me waking up
Everybody's time I'm taking up
I got nobody, it ain't a shoulder near
I can't stay here and it's colder there
I don't wanna look back cause it's gonna hurt
I slice my wrist and it's gonna squirt
For me everybody holds a hate
I got backstabbed and everybody holds the stake
It's no roads to take I'm in a circle drive
Bustin' at myself and I'm tryna survive
I'll disappoint you, and I will let you down
And I ain't got many home boys comin' round
You don't understand so don't say you do
I swear I'll put a mother f**in' slug in you
I'm the only one, the lonely one
And at home loading a gun thinking why not?
I got court comin' up, I stole a truck
I got a b**h pregnant and I'm broke as f**
I wanna get high but i got piss test
I'm always first name on top of the sh** list
Get this, the witch has made my chest
It's permanent nightly visiting nest
It ain't no clothes I look good in
I'm the mother f**in' big red train that couldn't
I got no family I stole they sh**
Restraining orders and I still won't quit
I hit rock bottom, and I fell in a hole
And I fell through the floor of that hole some more
I been missin for a year, nobody's lookin'
I got beat down and my sh** tookin'
I look ahead and all I see is more of the same
Or this self inflicted bullet hole pouring my brain!
I dream about cuttin' heads off with a shovel
The dreams are gettin' serious think I'm in trouble
I don't hold memory for more than an hour
I'm tire as f** and I'm drained of power
I ain't half way there and I'm outta time
I'm like a crushed light bulb, all outta shine
I been around the world but no place is home
I wanna see the other side when I face this chrome
I'm bu*t-naked, I been jackin' off gettin' drunk
It's my last hours alive who gives a f**?
It don't matter. I'm doing the sh** in the garage
Tryna make it easier for them to clean my head splaage
This b**h I loved, I hope she finds me
Still up in the chair with my thoughts behind me
I'm about to do it
Can you hold for a second...
Hello?