Insane Clown Posse - Suicide Hotline (Monoxide remix) lyrics

It ain't no point to me waking up Everybody's time I'm taking up I got nobody, it ain't a shoulder near I can't stay here and it's colder there I don't wanna look back cause it's gonna hurt I slice my wrist and it's gonna squirt For me everybody holds a hate I got backstabbed and everybody holds the stake It's no roads to take I'm in a circle drive Bustin' at myself and I'm tryna survive I'll disappoint you, and I will let you down And I ain't got many home boys comin' round You don't understand so don't say you do I swear I'll put a mother f**in' slug in you I'm the only one, the lonely one And at home loading a gun thinking why not? I got court comin' up, I stole a truck I got a b**h pregnant and I'm broke as f** I wanna get high but i got piss test I'm always first name on top of the sh** list Get this, the witch has made my chest It's permanent nightly visiting nest It ain't no clothes I look good in I'm the mother f**in' big red train that couldn't I got no family I stole they sh** Restraining orders and I still won't quit I hit rock bottom, and I fell in a hole And I fell through the floor of that hole some more I been missin for a year, nobody's lookin' I got beat down and my sh** tookin' I look ahead and all I see is more of the same Or this self inflicted bullet hole pouring my brain! I dream about cuttin' heads off with a shovel The dreams are gettin' serious think I'm in trouble I don't hold memory for more than an hour I'm tire as f** and I'm drained of power I ain't half way there and I'm outta time I'm like a crushed light bulb, all outta shine I been around the world but no place is home I wanna see the other side when I face this chrome I'm bu*t-naked, I been jackin' off gettin' drunk It's my last hours alive who gives a f**? It don't matter. I'm doing the sh** in the garage Tryna make it easier for them to clean my head splaage This b**h I loved, I hope she finds me Still up in the chair with my thoughts behind me I'm about to do it Can you hold for a second... Hello?