[Verse 1: Ill-Noize]
Started this year thinking you'd be by my side til the end
But I guess you had a change of heart, & left me 8 months in, (damnn)
I don't believe, but for weeks, I swear I prayed for your call, (I swear)
3am drunk in December, yea you just skipped the whole Fall
I guess it makes sense you were wasted the first time I spoke to you
You might as well be drunk for the last time that we speak too. (Lush)
It's funny, lately I've been thinking 'bout how we just used to f**, (f**)
Then I'd wake up to an empty bed, & not hear from you for months, (nahh)
I guess things don't really change, here we are from the jump
& you're still calling me drunk begging for me to pick you up, (what the f**...)
The pathetic thing is I would have done it too
Because deep down inside I'll always love you
(I don't know why)
Plus I could've used the s** to relieve some stress
I swear your p**y got a hex, & I'll be cursed 'til my last breath
5 years back & forth, it's like we always come back to this mess...
But for what it's worth, I still wish you the best...
(I wish you were dead...)
[Hook: Ill-Noize]
(Go!)
This year brought out the worst in me
Please make this stop, I've had enough
This year brought out the worst in me
So I'll just finish wrapping up...
[Verse 2: Ill-Noize]
It's like I can't focus on anything, anymore
It's like I'm standing on the porch with my foot in the door
Don't know whether to enter or exit
What the f**s the objective? Where the f** am I headed? I don't know...
Lately I've been feeling stuck in a loop
Someone please unplug the chord or hit reboot
Cause this month I've been so off track
Anxiety attacks, can't get my head to wrap
Around this emptiness I feel...
I swear in January I felt like I could take on the world
I had it all, good money, a vision, 'til my vision blurred
Lost it all, got off track, got sick & depressed
Worse than ever before, I could barely leave my bed
But I still never gave up, in fact her leaving might have lit the spark
To reignite this fire in my heart, & get myself out the dark
I'm used to being by myself, no alarm
Start from scratch, drop it all & restart...
[Hook 2: Ill-Noize]
(*1... 2... 3... 4...* Go!)
This year brought out the worst in me
Please make this stop, I've had enough
This year brought out the worst in me
Hoping to find some better luck
This year brought out the worst in me
Forget the past & rebuild trust
This year brought out the worst in me
So I'll just finish wrapping up...
[Verse 3: Ill-Noize]
I'll finish wrapping up, throw the gifts under the tree
Open one up, see what the world has in store for me
Let me breathe, just needed some time to think
Just needed to be alone, just needed a f**ing drink, a fat smoke & b**h on her knees
Some material things, spread this music like a disease, so cold I'm making you sneeze
Ya'll know you best better believe it
Wait 'til my tape drops in 2015, b**h