[Intro: Elusive]
I'm sick of feeling depressed
And I just wanna get some sh** off my chest
Like you ain't even gotta listen, I'mma just keep on spitting
Cause everything I have been through is too much ingest
And I guess, if life is a lesson
Then I'm just sitting here studying, in essence I'm trying to pa** the test
But I ain't gotta count my blessings, you've seen me through my depression
Now the only thing I hope is that you'll see me when I'm at my best..
[Verse 1: Elusive]
But if I can't be strong tonight
At the very least - there'll be another song to write
Like why would I wanna fight? If happiness is misery
Then black is white, and everything that's wrong is right
But when I can't see the light..
And I don't if I can't find it, or I'm blinded cause it's too bright
Either way, I just don't feel alright
And I don't need to be reminded, I'm trying to start a new life
Even though without you by my side
It's like I'm living out my life, while I die inside
I can try and hide it, act like I'm flying skyward
But in my mind I would rather be drinking cyanide
And if that is too much emotion
I don't really wanna drown - but I'll touch the ocean
As I'm sitting on the sand
But I feel like I'd need a lighthouse - just to see what's approaching..
[Hook: DMB]
I just don't know if I can walk along this lonely road, anymore..
When it feels like I'm drifting out to sea, and I just can't see the shore..
And I know it might seem to some of you, like I've been here once before..
But the only difference now is, I know you're worth fighting for..
[Verse 2: Elusive]
It's like I'm writing fiction, but then the story came true
This is my addiction, one you can't relate to
I feel like we're drowning, but you're so astounding
I would give my own life just to try and save you
Yeah, I'm digging deep - I'm gonna find the core
But right now, I'm feeling more like a dinosaur
I'm not sure if I belong
But I am writing you this song, because I know you're worth fighting for
Yeah, I'm gonna say what I feel
I know it's crazy, but maybe it's real
And I want you to know, I ain't afraid to reveal
My true self to you, I just hope you stay while I heal
Cause I am waiting for a better day
Writing letters, of everything I'd never say
It's not a suicide note, but I'm gasping for air
Cause you don't even care you took my breath away..
[Hook]
[Verse 3: Elusive]
I guess it's good that I'm writing more
Now that I have found something worth fighting for
But if you don't think you're worth it, you're perfect to me
And I'm sure you've got flaws that I might ignore
But I just can't help the way I see you
Cause nothing's as beautiful, as you seem to
Be, cause every time I look at you I see an angel staring back at me
Looking at me, like I'm see-through
But it must be cause you understand me
Most people ain't even able to f**ing stand me
I know it's cause I'm kinda strange, and I'm not trying to change
So I just hope you'll accept the only way I can be, cause..
[Hook]