[Intro]
My mind izza penitentiary
Am servin' time for the crime I've been guilty mentally
My soul trynna find myself in me
So lost unworth is this the purgatory
[Bridge]
With my words can you see what I see
Times in the past have you felt how I feel
Denied by your girl, friends and family
Nobody for no one this is what I believe
I bleed for my deeds
The man in the mirror looks just like me
But am not what I am, I wanna see a better me
Especially
Not what you perceive not what you want me to be
f** society they don't feed me
I look at tears of a child lyin on the streets satrvin'
What if that kid would be me? Beggin' for the first basic necessity
Coz there are
[Hook]
People whose lives are worse than mine
So am tryin' not to cry, am not afraid of dyin'
But am buried alive and the mud on my coffin
Is jealousy and envy putting me six feet
Under the cemetery filled with serpents
Fear psychogenically creeps like vermin's
Demons lurkin' – dead bodies of Angels Decompose
[Verse]
Got close to the voice of the streets the reaper follows me
I lead through the valley of the shadow of d**h
And reach to the fountain where the sorrowful wept
Engage my thoughts to recover the loss like an alchemist
I transmute myself into a masochist
Slit my wrist and to fatal faith my answer is blasphemous
Enter in a graveyard fear of God takes me closer to the 15th tarot card
Until my last hour I'll be mess'd up
Vision gets dark but I always learned to live with hardships
Embalm with arsenic, got weak flesh harden it
And murals that depict a well with skulls in it
Vultures circlin' the sculptures burnin' read the curse of ernulphus
Suburban slums with scums and guns and tons of murder weapons
From the dungeons of the world trapped and cuff'd
Shackles and chains feel the pain
Needles in skull piercin' the brains
Ingredients preserving bodies of saints
We breathe we are alive but rot like we're dead
Deliver us from the evils clutch my flesh is my sin
I cannot believe how it all began with the forbidden fruit
Spirit consumed by religion delude
Fast in throwin up it's the blood you puke
Like it's the last of your days the past flashes you
Rancid memories, love is enemy, d** are remedy, fornicate is a felony
Immerse infants in acid its frantic the way that psychopaths think, Imagine
The unimaginable circumstance where you've been hit with tragedy
Emotions decapitated, contaminated with the maggots
You know life is a b**h and suicide is a f*ggot
Am in need of an emotional pain k**er
Holler at the wrong person call up the drug seller
Will you call it strange am inflamed
With jealousy and hatred everyday I gotta deal with
[Hook]
People whose lives are better than mine
But am tryin not to cry, am not afraid of dyin
I get buried alive and the mud on my coffin
Is jealousy and envy putting me six feet
Under the cemetery filled with serpents
Fear psychogenically creeps like vermin's
Demons lurkin – dead bodies of Angels Decompose
[Bridge]
You know the stress won't let go
Express distress don't blow the threshold
Sulk n soar with hate overdose
Antisocial never feel remorse
Corpse a totaled vehicle of the soul
Rigor mortis the gears will not shift no more
The morgue is a wreckin' yard the depot
Post mortem usable parts maybe sold
We need to trick ourselves with placebo
Reverse psychology tell ourselves no
The shadow stuck in limbo
Nobody ever owes anything to anybody in this world
Adverse living deeds unforgiving
Hunger is a criminal never sent to prison
Lust is a convict left of bail thirst of desire
Eye for an eye infernal fire standby
[Outro]
Physical torture monstrosity
Makes the mind give up coz the flesh is weak
Relationship complexin' the simplicity
Loneliness can be your friend as well as your enemy