Ibex - Decompose lyrics

[Intro] My mind izza penitentiary Am servin' time for the crime I've been guilty mentally My soul trynna find myself in me So lost unworth is this the purgatory [Bridge] With my words can you see what I see Times in the past have you felt how I feel Denied by your girl, friends and family Nobody for no one this is what I believe I bleed for my deeds The man in the mirror looks just like me But am not what I am, I wanna see a better me Especially Not what you perceive not what you want me to be f** society they don't feed me I look at tears of a child lyin on the streets satrvin' What if that kid would be me? Beggin' for the first basic necessity Coz there are [Hook] People whose lives are worse than mine So am tryin' not to cry, am not afraid of dyin' But am buried alive and the mud on my coffin Is jealousy and envy putting me six feet Under the cemetery filled with serpents Fear psychogenically creeps like vermin's Demons lurkin' – dead bodies of Angels Decompose [Verse] Got close to the voice of the streets the reaper follows me I lead through the valley of the shadow of d**h And reach to the fountain where the sorrowful wept Engage my thoughts to recover the loss like an alchemist I transmute myself into a masochist Slit my wrist and to fatal faith my answer is blasphemous Enter in a graveyard fear of God takes me closer to the 15th tarot card Until my last hour I'll be mess'd up Vision gets dark but I always learned to live with hardships Embalm with arsenic, got weak flesh harden it And murals that depict a well with skulls in it Vultures circlin' the sculptures burnin' read the curse of ernulphus Suburban slums with scums and guns and tons of murder weapons From the dungeons of the world trapped and cuff'd Shackles and chains feel the pain Needles in skull piercin' the brains Ingredients preserving bodies of saints We breathe we are alive but rot like we're dead Deliver us from the evils clutch my flesh is my sin I cannot believe how it all began with the forbidden fruit Spirit consumed by religion delude Fast in throwin up it's the blood you puke Like it's the last of your days the past flashes you Rancid memories, love is enemy, d** are remedy, fornicate is a felony Immerse infants in acid its frantic the way that psychopaths think, Imagine The unimaginable circumstance where you've been hit with tragedy Emotions decapitated, contaminated with the maggots You know life is a b**h and suicide is a f*ggot Am in need of an emotional pain k**er Holler at the wrong person call up the drug seller Will you call it strange am inflamed With jealousy and hatred everyday I gotta deal with [Hook] People whose lives are better than mine But am tryin not to cry, am not afraid of dyin I get buried alive and the mud on my coffin Is jealousy and envy putting me six feet Under the cemetery filled with serpents Fear psychogenically creeps like vermin's Demons lurkin – dead bodies of Angels Decompose [Bridge] You know the stress won't let go Express distress don't blow the threshold Sulk n soar with hate overdose Antisocial never feel remorse Corpse a totaled vehicle of the soul Rigor mortis the gears will not shift no more The morgue is a wreckin' yard the depot Post mortem usable parts maybe sold We need to trick ourselves with placebo Reverse psychology tell ourselves no The shadow stuck in limbo Nobody ever owes anything to anybody in this world Adverse living deeds unforgiving Hunger is a criminal never sent to prison Lust is a convict left of bail thirst of desire Eye for an eye infernal fire standby [Outro] Physical torture monstrosity Makes the mind give up coz the flesh is weak Relationship complexin' the simplicity Loneliness can be your friend as well as your enemy