[Music and Lyrics by HERR MORBID - Autumn/Winter 2001]
Lying in a dark corner
The black candle light is dying out
Trying to refuse this suffering
As coldness burns my pale naked flesh
I faced my fears a thousand times
Endless doubts - Life of paranoia
I try to find a way out
From this state of suicidal urge
I watch with empty eyes the blade
As tears begin to fall down my face
Another night alone with myself
At one with melancholy and depression
I bleed because the dark is near
I cry as i realize you can' t be here
I need to caress your skin in the night
But now my only friend remains this knife
Why must i live with these fears?
I know my only tragedy is my mind
Sometimes i think i'm wasting all the joys
And with this bitter thought i fear to die
I feel so jaded now, so far away
I can't face next morning with this pain
Another cut lacerates my flesh
Sometimes i think it will be the last
I'm only trying to objectivate this hate
I prove towards myself and life itself
I only need to watch these fifty wounds
I opened upon my body in the night
I only need to stop these sick d**h thoughts
And cry for joy when you'll be here again
I'll watch you sleeping naked at my side
I'll kiss you and this blood will stop to flow
Everyone can k** himself one day
Life brings pain and suffering on our way
Cut your wrists, it's simpler than it seems
But in d**h you'll know...
Disheartenment wins