If you counted how many people actually care and love us
You can have numerous sisters, loads of brothers, unlimited friends, previous lovers, dozens of cousins
But you only get one mother
My mum had two baby daddies
Thats excess baggage
Still, she had a dream that, one day you could still get married
In the meantime, knowing, her self esteem was damaged
I said i'd take her to the Lake District's but then surprised her with Paris
And that was a little appreciation for all that she's done
Cus' for 15 years, she struggled to cope and manage
15 years, I used to ask were dad is
She was scared to tell me cus' they broke her thumb at my uncle Garry's
On her 49th birthday, took her out to Vermilion
Her dad just died, so we talked about where we gon' bury him
He left some money behind, for my mum an Jilian
And 7 days after that, her uncle died from Middleton
Jesus, you couldn't even write this sh**
Chances, two brothers dying in the same week
Like one to a million
Me stressed out
[?]
I was there for 2 days and got a call from my aunty Jilian
Phone dropped to the floor
I didn't want to hear any more
Sun, sea and sand, didn't want to be here anymore
It was only the previous night, that I said to my father in law, I dont know what grieving feels like, no one died on me before
Close your eyes, Im gonna re-picture the scene
29th of February, 2016
My mum gets a knock on door, 'round about 9:15
She opens it up to her brother, and he asks how have you been
And then he walks in, my sisters up stairs in the bath
He sits down in the living room and starts a casual chat
10 minutes goes by, my mums probably smoking a f*g
Suddenly he whips out a petrol bomb from the bag on his back
He sets it alight
Then throws at the floor
It explodes with a bang
As he heads for the door
My mums trapped in the fire, as it spreads up the wall
Spreads to the ceiling, over the chairs and out in the hall
My sister hears loud screaming, she jumps out of the bath
Out of the bedroom window, naked, onto the gra**
My mums on fire, she makes it to the garden path
The dog is upstairs barking he can't get out cus' he's trapped
A helicopter comes to the school to airlift my mum
My emergency flight home was taking 3 days to come
The police, put out a manhunt cus' he goes on the run
Its national news, Daily Mail, Mirror even the Sun
Its Thursday the 3rd, when I came off the plane
My mum died that night, we never spoken again
If you can hear me now, I just wanted to say
I love you mum, hope to see you again some day