Dormant and formattable to be formatted
I press my back on this floor mattress
And a**ess myself in places to figure out why I'm so complacent
And why I have become so misplaced
In an instant the matter of earth is a pin prick
Im so f**ing embarra**ed with myself
No eyes see mine when I'm behind this screen
Yet uploading data is so frightening
I want to empower my power to do something
Not to be mute , but to move something
Not be one but to be something
I trace these lines with the tips of my
Fingers and think of my lonesome times
I do not follow convention for creation
Creation is free
And I want to be that
I want to live forever on a disc format
I have a fear of being noticed
I need verification to fill these holes
If I scream and no body is beside me
Did I scream at all?
If I die and no body is beside me
Do I live forever in these brick walls?
Poetics are simple if you take time to understand your mental
Lets talk soul and judgement
If a god loves me then why Shall I be punished?
My grandad shall pa**
And My hands will forever dig the dirt of my sibling's ash
This word document
It means something
I won't let you empair my judgement
I shall disdain from people's ideas and ideals just like I did when I was real
But people creep in and broke my core
And made me soft and took its course
Now I've sat nine months with not a written word
Telling myself too busy when the though occurs
I hate myself for this
I'm sat confused and stupid
This ocean has been free for me but I haven't moved yet
And that's okay but that's not okay
And I'm taking the not okay
And I'm resolving this today