Empty - Degrading lyrics

Dormant and formattable to be formatted I press my back on this floor mattress And a**ess myself in places to figure out why I'm so complacent And why I have become so misplaced In an instant the matter of earth is a pin prick Im so f**ing embarra**ed with myself No eyes see mine when I'm behind this screen Yet uploading data is so frightening I want to empower my power to do something Not to be mute , but to move something Not be one but to be something I trace these lines with the tips of my Fingers and think of my lonesome times I do not follow convention for creation Creation is free And I want to be that I want to live forever on a disc format I have a fear of being noticed I need verification to fill these holes If I scream and no body is beside me Did I scream at all? If I die and no body is beside me Do I live forever in these brick walls? Poetics are simple if you take time to understand your mental Lets talk soul and judgement If a god loves me then why Shall I be punished? My grandad shall pa** And My hands will forever dig the dirt of my sibling's ash This word document It means something I won't let you empair my judgement I shall disdain from people's ideas and ideals just like I did when I was real But people creep in and broke my core And made me soft and took its course Now I've sat nine months with not a written word Telling myself too busy when the though occurs I hate myself for this I'm sat confused and stupid This ocean has been free for me but I haven't moved yet And that's okay but that's not okay And I'm taking the not okay And I'm resolving this today